"Is this what you wanted?" she warbled angrily, her body shaking as she stood over the open grave, looking down at the casket inside. "Is... is this what you wanted so badly? Are you happy you got what you wanted?"
She slid down onto the ground, the elaborate headstone towering over her with the Vatican's angels peering down, the white marbled caked in grave dirt and vines and neglect. The name barely stood out, engraved into the placard on the front: Monsieur Pierre Roquefort.1878-1899. A Son of God. It didn't even have the decency to rain down on her in the graveyard, here near the moment of dawn, no fanfare or pomp to make this moment congruous with the despair that clawed at the middle of her chest.
"No, you can't be happy. You're dead," she sobbed with gritted teeth, chucking a clod of dirt back into the opened grave. Her black dress was a mess of dirt, her fingernails bleeding and cracked where she had dug so hard. Her skin was a worrying pallor, her lips a stark red against the pearl of her teeth.
"I had thought when you passed on that I would finally feel freedom. My kind... we do not need you pitiful men. You live such short lives, like may flies in the summer. But here I am. And I pine so hard. None other has come close to the chase you gave me," she spat at the coffin. "And now, I know what it is like to want to die. To need to die of a broken heart, but unable to pass on. I don't have the guts to do what Delphine did in Louisiana. I can't set my house ablaze and die inside with all my sins surrounding me, screaming. But I have no absolution, either."
She felt a tingling on her skin, a faint sensation of burning on the back of her neck, and she squeezed her eyes shut.
"You granted me mercy. You told me that I had it in me to neglect the nature of my kind, as man neglects his own evil nature and turns towards God. But would God accept me?" she asked, shaking as the sensation increased in intensity.
"I don't think it would matter. If you are more merciful than the God you serve, than I would sooner flee from his judgment. He is no worthy deity to bend the knee to," she continued, her eyes set firmly on the casket as they brimmed with tears, both from sorrow as well as pain.
With a sudden realization, she wondered if this were the right course of action, of what might actually await her on the other side, and she managed to croak out, "Pierre, I'm sc-"
She exploded into black ash, the sun peeking fully over the horizon and beaming down onto the open grave, now covered in what seemed to be black soot, a mess for the grave tender to wonder at as he made his morning rounds.