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The first trimester of the pregnancy wasn't exactly the most pleasant for Carina, who experienced sickness almost every single day without fail. Some days were good, and she was able to enjoy a walk through the castle gardens either by herself or with Lauren, or spend some time in the library. The worst days had her sleeping until late, attempting to sleep through the nausea that rocked her stomach as if she were on a boat rather than in bed. Certain foods became her enemy, sometimes not even the smell of them but the sight. Like eggs, or the blood leaking from a medium-cooked steak.
The doctor had warned her, during her four month check up, that she was slightly under what she ought to be by that point. The little bump that had started to grow a bit smaller than average, but yet there was nothing to be too concerned about.
Because of her lack of appetite, she had started to take vitamin tablets in order to keep her body and her baby as strong as possible, knowing she would have to get them from somewhere. Often she would take them first thing when she woke up, so they had enough time to digest before she went down for breakfast. She didn't want them wasted if they were about to come straight back up at the smallest bite of toast. But even the tablets struggled to stay down on her worst days, so it was a constant battle for Carina.
As the months continued, she also found a new strain on her nerves and her mind. So often she would wake in a cold sweat, new nightmares forming of her death. Most of the time it was Sven, but never in the same way. Sometimes she would be laying out on the bed, exhausted after bringing their baby into the world, for it to be taken away and her throat slit before she could even hear it cry for the first time. Sometimes she would be in a rocking chair in the nursery where flames would erupt and Sven would walk through them to collect their child, leaving her screaming and burning to death. Sometimes she didn't even die, but had to watch in agony as she was locked away in the dungeon with Sven holding a young child's hand, walking away from the dungeon door where she would scream out and batter the door with bloodied fists.
Other times her murderer was her child, twisted and cruel after so many years under Sven's guidance.
Carina knew she would never see her child grow past the age of two or three, and even then that was pushing it. This was already their first child after five months of marriage. She had promised him two more. She wasn't sure just how long she could draw out her promise to provide spares now the heir had been conceived. It killed her to think she may never see any of her children grow up.
She just had to have faith and hope in the plan created by herself and Lauren, whom of which had been working even more on Thorin now that the guard had been demoted and cut himself off from his former friend.
That being said, despite the less than pleasant symptoms and the dread that lurked once it was born, Carina was quietly excited for the baby. She had found many a book to read in order to prepare for arrival but also what she could do while pregnant. Which is why she enjoyed her days in the library, where she would sit with a book and read out loud to her unborn child. On a good day she would recite Eirian nursery rhymes and sing Eirian lullabies.
So now, with a new winter settled in and the usual hot temperature of the Ignis draining into something a little cooler, Carina settled for the evening in the library, sat in front of an empty fire place with a light, silk blanket resting over her crossed legs. It may have been a lot cooler than the summer Carina had experienced, but it didn't allow her to indulge in her usual love for winter. Back in Eira, she would be curled up on a love seat in front of a fire that crackled and roasted her warm. A thick fur blanket thrown over her with a glass of honeyed milk.
She sat staring into the unlit fire pit, hand gently stroking over the mini bump as she kept herself lost in her thoughts. She had just realised she had been in Ignis for a year now. Two months from now would be both the anniversary of her wedding... and the anniversary of her brother's murder.
It was hard to think that Eira had lost the war in January, quite possibly the coldest month of the year. Perhaps that's why they lost it, too confident that Ignis would struggle in the colder months and would be less likely to surge forward with their power. How foolish they had been.
Sighing softly, Carina looked down to the small bump, simply enjoying the silence. She had yet to see anything of Sven that day, and she was grateful for it, considering it was also her birthday. She hadn't revealed that piece of information to anyone, not even Lauren. She didn't want any kind of acknowledgement for it because, quite frankly, what was the point?
"I don't get any invites to the big parties," she murmured softly to the bump, smiling quietly down at it, "So why would there be one for me? Besides, I can count on three fingers who I'd want at any party for me; one of them is dead, one wouldn't be able to come, and the last one isn't even here yet." She chuckled, referring to the unborn child.
Carina then released a long breath, allowing her eyes to close as she leaned against the armrest of the love seat. After a momentary pause, she started another Eirian lullaby, finger lightly tapping against the top of the bump in rhythm to the song.
The doctor had warned her, during her four month check up, that she was slightly under what she ought to be by that point. The little bump that had started to grow a bit smaller than average, but yet there was nothing to be too concerned about.
Because of her lack of appetite, she had started to take vitamin tablets in order to keep her body and her baby as strong as possible, knowing she would have to get them from somewhere. Often she would take them first thing when she woke up, so they had enough time to digest before she went down for breakfast. She didn't want them wasted if they were about to come straight back up at the smallest bite of toast. But even the tablets struggled to stay down on her worst days, so it was a constant battle for Carina.
As the months continued, she also found a new strain on her nerves and her mind. So often she would wake in a cold sweat, new nightmares forming of her death. Most of the time it was Sven, but never in the same way. Sometimes she would be laying out on the bed, exhausted after bringing their baby into the world, for it to be taken away and her throat slit before she could even hear it cry for the first time. Sometimes she would be in a rocking chair in the nursery where flames would erupt and Sven would walk through them to collect their child, leaving her screaming and burning to death. Sometimes she didn't even die, but had to watch in agony as she was locked away in the dungeon with Sven holding a young child's hand, walking away from the dungeon door where she would scream out and batter the door with bloodied fists.
Other times her murderer was her child, twisted and cruel after so many years under Sven's guidance.
Carina knew she would never see her child grow past the age of two or three, and even then that was pushing it. This was already their first child after five months of marriage. She had promised him two more. She wasn't sure just how long she could draw out her promise to provide spares now the heir had been conceived. It killed her to think she may never see any of her children grow up.
She just had to have faith and hope in the plan created by herself and Lauren, whom of which had been working even more on Thorin now that the guard had been demoted and cut himself off from his former friend.
That being said, despite the less than pleasant symptoms and the dread that lurked once it was born, Carina was quietly excited for the baby. She had found many a book to read in order to prepare for arrival but also what she could do while pregnant. Which is why she enjoyed her days in the library, where she would sit with a book and read out loud to her unborn child. On a good day she would recite Eirian nursery rhymes and sing Eirian lullabies.
So now, with a new winter settled in and the usual hot temperature of the Ignis draining into something a little cooler, Carina settled for the evening in the library, sat in front of an empty fire place with a light, silk blanket resting over her crossed legs. It may have been a lot cooler than the summer Carina had experienced, but it didn't allow her to indulge in her usual love for winter. Back in Eira, she would be curled up on a love seat in front of a fire that crackled and roasted her warm. A thick fur blanket thrown over her with a glass of honeyed milk.
She sat staring into the unlit fire pit, hand gently stroking over the mini bump as she kept herself lost in her thoughts. She had just realised she had been in Ignis for a year now. Two months from now would be both the anniversary of her wedding... and the anniversary of her brother's murder.
It was hard to think that Eira had lost the war in January, quite possibly the coldest month of the year. Perhaps that's why they lost it, too confident that Ignis would struggle in the colder months and would be less likely to surge forward with their power. How foolish they had been.
Sighing softly, Carina looked down to the small bump, simply enjoying the silence. She had yet to see anything of Sven that day, and she was grateful for it, considering it was also her birthday. She hadn't revealed that piece of information to anyone, not even Lauren. She didn't want any kind of acknowledgement for it because, quite frankly, what was the point?
"I don't get any invites to the big parties," she murmured softly to the bump, smiling quietly down at it, "So why would there be one for me? Besides, I can count on three fingers who I'd want at any party for me; one of them is dead, one wouldn't be able to come, and the last one isn't even here yet." She chuckled, referring to the unborn child.
Carina then released a long breath, allowing her eyes to close as she leaned against the armrest of the love seat. After a momentary pause, she started another Eirian lullaby, finger lightly tapping against the top of the bump in rhythm to the song.
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