So I've finally managed to land a full time position in my field that will put me on the path towards where I want to wind up. Its a group home working with youth who have been removed from their family homes, some with developmental delays, others more behavioral issues. This is a huge step for me, because it will definitely teach me to remain level headed in chaotic situations, identify problem behaviours in clients on the fly and conduct myself in an authoritative manner. At the moment, I am none of these things, I'm afraid of freaking out, or messing something up, or letting the kids walk all over me. I know this is going to be one of the hardest things I've ever done, but at the same time I know these are fears I HAVE to face if I want to reach my dream of becoming a psychotherapist. Its just so many of these things are going to be new to me, restraining violent kids, being a role model, being in charge?! I was always the one that needed watching, now I've got to step up and play the other role. Change is some scary shit.