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Having sent out a message for his pupil to meet him at their designated training field, he would be sitting upon a stump as the never ending rain fell upon the field. He wanted to have this conversation with her sooner but a certain someone quit their job which got the responsibilities shoved onto him by Eiji. Not that he minded as he could finally correct the mistakes that woman made. Granted not all the mistakes were going to be fixed right away, yet they were dealt with to the point he actually had a bit of free time. Something which should be spent on getting his pupils ready for whatever may come their way in the future. So he wasn't sure how well Yone would be accepting of this, given her reaction when situations hit the boiling point. However if she was willing to accept his help then he would try to make her a little more confident when it came to combat in general. He also had to help Sho as well, maybe teach him how to spot Genjutsu better. Thinking about it actually, Yone seemed a bit more relaxed around Sho. Mostly since he was given a report that Sho got arrested for a dispute and Yone was around the scene at the time. Maybe he should bring Sho along one day for a joint training session.
Yone almost had to drag herself to the training field which would serve as a meeting spot with Mitsunari sensei. In the past few days, she hadn't relaxed or taken it easy. No, quite the opposite. Work at the post office had claimed her free time. For the past week, which had seemed like a lifetime for the teen, was all about the post office. Mister Nomura had tried to persuade her several times that she should take it easy. Take fewer orders and packages to bring away. Or let him do some work at the ceiling and roof. But what would people say if they heard that she would let the old man do all the work? It wouldn't look nice on her resume!
Mentally she kept claiming that she had no personal attachment to see the office being restored. To see some glint in the eyes of the man that felt like a grandfather for her. Or what she assumed what a grandfather was like.
She had even refused extra payment. In a way. After all, she doubted that mister Nomura could afford the entire repairs on his own. And she could afford a bit of a lose.
Arriving at the field Yone already dreaded the idea if the entire team was there. The last time hadn't gone well. Would it now be different with Mitsunari being the jounin commander of the Rain province? Would it mean that they would get some extra payment or privileges? The man had certainly not come across as somebody who would do either. Likely the opposite. Probably being disappointed that she hadn't done any kind of formal training or dedication to her 'kunoichi' skills. At least, she could state she had worked on her stamina. Her sore back and legs made that clear.
"Uuughhh," resonated softly from Yone's mouth as she spotted the man. Heading over to the man, with her head a bit lowered she would offer a sloppy salute.
"Reporting in, sensei," Yone said, trying to mask her being wary and already tired.
The woman of the hour would arrive looking like she just went through hell. Mitsunari would be silent for a bit as he looked at her, offering her a smile. "Are you feeling alright?" he would ask her noticing she tried to look fine, yet at the same time he was sure a strong enough gust would knock her to the ground. Mitsunari would then stand up off the stump he was sitting upon and offer it to her to sit on. "So I got this funny report. Heard Sho picked a fight with a Hyuuga and Uchiha, those three got arrested. I also heard you were at the scene as well." folding his arms he would look at her before snickering as his smile broke through. "They may have a dojutsu but I'm sure you could have kicked their ass. Although for the future might want to save it for when it's allowed and won't involve jail." Mitsunari advised still smiling as he would continue on. "That situation actually brings up what I wanted to talk with you about. You aren't in trouble, yet may I ask what happened exactly? Apparently when you become the Jounin commander you get reports of what both sides say. And as Sho will grumble and groan at me asking him questions, I hope you can tell me the truth of what happened."
She would have likely cast a smile back and not have such a rude thought. But this wasn't a day where Yone felt at her best. Not with the rough past week. At least, it was just them. But why had a training field been their meeting spot? Already Yone feared what it could imply, though no complaint left her lips.
"I am alive, guess that is a thing," was her answer on Mitsunari's question, a light shrug following the reply. Should she ask how he had been? Probably busy if she had to make an assumption.
Then her eyes slightly widened as Mitsunari brought up the scene with the 'Hyuuga leader' and that Uchiha. Already her mind started to progress various reasons and arguments that she had done nothing wrong. Her eyes narrowed as result, growing as wary as a cornered cat. Only to become confused as Mitsunari expressed that she could have likely kicked their butts.
"Huh?"
Temporary confused on why the man would say such a thing, Yone forgot that she was tired.
"But I didn't do anything wrong. I just called out a petty liar. The leader of the Hyuuga, sure and I am the mother of the Empress," the last sentence was muttered out as Yone briefly threw a look to the right, crossing her arms out front of her chest.
The wary look shifted back on Yone's features as Mitsunari stated she wasn't in trouble, yet. What did that mean? Was he going to instruct her to do some work to make up for calling out a Hyuuga? A certain rebellious side of Yone was starting to boil and ready the teen to sneer a reply back. Only remembering that the man would likely be able to break her like a twig if he wanted to. Or probably nag for hours until she would cave in. Old people usually seem to have some talent to be good at nagging.
Only he asked what her side of the story was. Something that caused Yone to frown for a second and then only a blank expression to flow over her features.
"I believe that I have the right to remain silent, don't I?"
He had to hold in the chuckle at what she said as he was suppose to be unbiased but he didn't really roll that way. "I understand what you mean, and prepare for the shock. That kid was indeed the leader of the Hyuuga, if you can even consider someone that young a leader. Yet good to know you mother her grace." he spoke as his smile would go back to its neutral expression, when she voiced she had the right to remain silent. He nodded his head to what she said. "True you do indeed have that right. However think of it this way. What could I possibly do to you if if don't tell me? I suspend you and it looks bad on me, I kick you back to the academy and it looks bad at me. I can't really punish you for not telling me, it was more so me just asking. You don't have to spill the details. Yet if you can spare one detail.... Did Sho swing first?" he asked examining her face before moving onwards to why he brought her here. "I only planned on having a small conversation with you today, so no need to go anywhere just to take up room. I do believe you can and are a valuable assest to the team, yet your nerves fail you when things escalate more than you anticpate them too." he stated briefly giving her a look before continuing. "Is it a combat problem? Do you not trust yourself when it comes down to such acts? Is it something else that might be causing this problem? I'm willing to help you work on it, but you need to let me help you."
"What the crap," Yone said, both amazed and confused. Was that punk supposed to be a clan leader? How was that even possible? While she wasn't part of a clan Yone had learned of various clans in the Academy. The idea that the Hyuuga had somebody like that as their clan leader made her wonder how that had come to be. She wouldn't respect somebody who had chickened out as he had done. Even calling for help, only to be arrested in the process. Which was ironic and thus amusing for Yone.
The man continued and Yone wagered her options. She could rat out on Sho. But it would likely come out that she had done that. And what was the saying again? Snitches gain stitches? Sho didn't seem the kind of guy who would hold back to make her gain some stitches if he would learn she had ratted him out. Then again, had he swung first? The man did continue about that he considered her having potential to be a valuable asset to the team. She had her own doubts but wouldn't voice them. He had the right to think that, she just told herself.
When he brought up the fact she became nervous in tedious situations Yone wanted to note that the term 'nervous' was quite relative. If paired near a person who had murdered for no good reason? Then yeah, nervous would cut it. Anxious perhaps even better.
"He didn't swing first," Yone said in a calm and collective fashion. "As for my nerves," the girl said as she would pause for a second.
"I don't know. I have seen people fight. Not much of a fighter myself. Just, never killed somebody. Never thought of it when being actually educated and trained to be a kunoichi in the Academy."
Another pause followed the words of Yone as her head would turn to look away.
"I just don't know, okay? I guess I never considered going straight into a combat situation ever before. Not with the risk of losing limbs or my life."
She would state he didn't swing first which kind of made him suspicious but he wouldn't pry any further on it. "Alright I trust you then." he spoke as he would then listen in on why she was a bit panicked, the reasons she gave were perfectly fine too. Their was only one thing he couldn't however help her with. "Well I can train you to be more of a fighter. Make you slightly more comfortable when those situations arrive. However when it comes to killing, in the end its on you on how you proceed. You can let the grief overcome you and weigh you down for the rest of your life. You can also thrill for it, its messed up but those people exist. You can also live on with it always hanging over your head." Mitsunari spoke rubbing the back of his head trying to find the words to explain it. "In this job, you can't exclude killing. One day it may come to it. You know when I first killed someone, I was mortified. It was a young woman who chose a life of being a missing nin. Yet to watch the life fade from someone and know you are the cause...." stopping briefly he took a deep breath in before exhaling. "It's terrifying I won't lie to you about that. The reason I carry on is because I'm a source of hope for my clan even if it is small. Believe it or not some do consider me a role model, even if that is pretty freaking stupid if you ask me. So I chose to keep my head up and live with what I had done. Give my clan that hope they need and be a stepping stone for the future. All I can say is if you can't bring yourself to kill someone, you might want to stay away from the shinobi path. Just know that if you stay, and if you kill. I am here to talk thing through."
When Mitsunari stated he trusted her, Yone felt once more wary and confused. Deciding to not linger her thoughts about it, Yone would pay attention to what the man would continue.
As he brought up killing Yone mentally sighed. She expected him to try to act as some wise monk. Already the words were at the tip of her tongue, telling him she would think about it. Yet, the words wouldn't turn into words. Gazing at Mitsunari as he began talking about his own experience Yone wasn't sure what to think of it.
In a way, she appreciated it. It showed a good side of the man. But she wasn't certain how she should respond back without either offending him or seem too touched. Lowering her head a bit Yone remained silent. He continued on why he still carried on, even after such an experience. But she wasn't certain what she should do with his words. The meaning was clear but she couldn't make it relevant to herself. The idea of making herself a role model sounded nice. Only that she had nobody to look up to her or be proud of her. Unless it would bring in booze or only money for her father. Her mother? Yone wasn't even sure if the woman even lived in the present or what her name was.
"I don't know if it is really true," she started, still looking away, "But I guess I am just scared to end as my old man. Damn prick is more than half of the time drunk. Lost a leg as missing three fingers on his left hand. The result of a combat situation when serving at the borders. He and his unit were caught between a skirmish. Before you ask," Yone turned her head to look at Mitsunari, a clear expression that demanded he wouldn't pity or treat her different, "My mother just dumped me with that fat oaf and left. I guess that I am just scared to end up as the idiot. Drunk, miserable and that just with one combat situation gone wrong."
End up like her father? Well he was making progress if she opened up about this to him. Being injured during a skirmish which he took pretty hard apparently. Yone would then give him a look to show her no pity or treat her special, which he never planned to. If he di that to her he would have to do it for hundred others. finish explaining that her mom left her with him and she feared becoming like him, brought up the next part. "That would be the next part in those situations. Overcoming killing is one thing, yet if it leaves you scarred for life. Then you have to overcome yourself. That is something both our fathers seemed to have failed to do. I don't know if its too late but maybe you can make him see a different path in life. I can't truly say what he should do. He could always aim to be a teacher. Not like I teach you, but one that goes into detail on combat sitautions. Its one thing to particpate in battles, but offering your insight on how a battle may pan out is very vital." Mitsunari would pace a bit as this was never his strong subject. "Can't promise nothing, but you will only end up like that if you let yourself end up like it. You only lose if you choose to stop fighting."
A scoff would make it clear that Yone didn't share the hope or consider it a viable thought to see a different path in life. She even doubted that he even gave a damn about her. Why would she be able to make him suddenly care? But she would once more hold those thoughts for herself. Mitsunari probably just assumed how her situation was. Instantly the mind of the teen would push her own problems to be above that of Mitsunari. Not allowing her to consider that his youth could have been rough or even rougher than hers. He was, after all, a clan leader. Somebody who could enjoy a rich life, couldn't he?
Pushing the thoughts and questions aside Yone kept paying attention to what Mitsunari told her. She was somewhat interested in what he could teach her. Yet she hoped it wouldn't include him throwing her into some nasty situation and hope she would learn how to deal with the stress that one would undergo in combat situations.
Spitting on the ground, a challenging expression had taken form over Yone's features. "Damn that. Not going to end as some bitter fat prick," she grumbled. The mere thought was enough to piss her off.
"Fine. So I decide to continue fighting. How does that help my nerves? I learned that when a person draws a knife, the best thing you can do is to make a run for it. Yet when I made a run for it, I doubt that I did the right thing last time."
"Hear me out now." He said smiling as he held up his index finger. "This is where the lovely art of strategy comes into play. Someone pulls a knife is fine and dandy, yet you have to take facts into considerations. How well versed are they at using that knife? Are they being really agressive? Timid? Lots to consider. For example you are pretty fast at running. Say this attacker has better martial skills than you. Say hes agressive and really wants you dead. Use that to your advantage. Who said you have to show honor when you kill? Be dirty, be as dishonorable as possible. They say the strong thrive and the weak die. Know what I say? The intelligent surive and the idiots perish. So say you fake a retreat. You keep ahead of this guy by just enough to keep making him want to chase you. You sleek around a corner, place a well place paper bomb, cover it with a rock and continue running. He comes around runs over the rock and boom. You just beat someone who had far more skill. Some think battles are who is stronger than who. Its far more complex than that. You have to study your foe, a smart man can even fake it. A timid person could really be a damn skilled warrior. So running can be smart, whats smarter is to study them first. In fact test them. They pull a knife, you pull a knife. Sometimes weapons are involved for intimidation than they are to actually cause harm. "
Hearing him out, as he asked, Yone crossed her arms out front of her chest. "Huh," she frowned slightly as she eyed Mitsunari once more. "Weird, I always imagined that you were one of those crude guys who had a sense of morality and honour. But guess you're right. Only, I doubt that I can think of so many questions and then do something and not give into instincts and just run."
Yet Yone did realise that she had never tried to give it any thought. "Okay, I guess it is worth a try. But how can I practice it? Unless you are now advising me to look up people with knives and a short temper."
He laughed at bit about what she thought he was, a crude man with morals and honour. "In this age Yone that will get you killed. Unless you are a damn war god, probably should shown some skeptism around people. It's after all how we as humans learn wether to trust or feign trust" Mitsunari answered that before moving on to her next question on how to practice it. " Well we can ease your way into it. Only way you may find someone with a knife is a petty criminal or a potential target on a mission. Which if I feel the team wont kill each other first. I may consider doing. But easing your way into it is something I can do. Practical experience would be regular combat. So it wouldn't be fair to compete against me but Sho on the other hand would be more productive. I will arrange for him and you to spar with each other with me spectating just in case someone doesn't stop punching."
"I guess," she responded at first. Realising she was getting less tense now that they were talking and Mitsunari didn't seem as a bad guy, Yone almost felt the need to tense up. As if it would be bad to lower her guard for the man. Deciding to not bother too much with how the man was talking or teaching her, Yone continued to pay attention to what he said.
"Heh," snickering she could imagine that the team could very well start to target each other. Not a really funny image but she dreaded that it was indeed the reality.
"Yeah, no. I am not going to challenge Sho to a fight. I might not be the sharpest tool in the shed, sensei, but giving Sho a reason to release some pent up aggression or anger on me? I rather not, thank you." Yone said, really not finding it a smart idea. Perhaps Sho would find some fun in it but she certainly could imagine that it would be just a session of pain and regret. Much like how her mother probably felt after her father had made her pregnant, Yone thought to herself, slightly disturbed.
Well she was quick to decline sparring against Sho, and her reason was just. "Well that would be the point in me spectating but can't really force you on that...." Mitsunari said as he tapped his chin trying to think of someone she could spar without fearing being pounded. "Well if not Sho then what about my younger brother Sintra. He is as calm as it gets and has some experience to be a slight challenge.... I think." he spoke as he continued to think of people. "I could always borrow someone from Etsu's team... Oh! Thats and idea. I'll give you the choice here before I start enforcing. You can challenge Sintra, or team up with Sho to have a friendly spar against Etsu's two pupils. Which would you prefer?" Mitsunari said folding his arms as he gave a small smile to her. For someone that was afraid of most combat situations, she was assertive when she wanted to be. She was more like Sho than she realised.
Yone once more wavered. But it was probably better than Sho Deshuga. Nodding slowly Yone made it evident that she was more content with the suggestion of Mitsunari's younger brother.
He would continue on to suggest something and Yone once more found herself wavering.
"I think that I will risk facing your sibling. Sho might be a good guy and all, but I am not going to risk the unknown yet. Perhaps after I gain a bit more experience I might be more acceptive of the idea."
Nodding his head he would begin making plans once he returned home. "Alright probably wise. After all Etsu probably has those two on the same wavelength by now knowing her. Well I shall begin making preparations for this spar. I'll send you a note when to arrive. Who knows show me some promise and I'll think about getting this team it's first low rank mission. Nothing too serious as that requires teamwork but something to add to your record pretty much. Genin level you could say. So unless you have something you wish to discuss then you are free to go."
"Perhaps something with some bonus to it, hm? Could always use extra motivation in the form of money," Yone brought up, though she doubted that Mitsunari would do that.
"I guess that I have nothing on mind right now. Guess you're busy these days, so I might be great in phrasing it but I am grateful for... this lesson, kinda."
Scratching behind her right ear Yone looked away for a moment before she would speak up and look once more in Mitsunari's direction.
"Well, you know what I am probably going to do. Old man Nomura is going to repair the last damage to his post office. I am going to help cause... got nothing better to do, anyways. So, yeah, see ya sensei." Her words were followed by a salute as Yone turned around and thought about what they had discussed.
He gave a shrug and smile at her first question. "Do a perfect job and who knows." he stated not showing it but being a bit happy she was grateful for their talk and gave her a nod of approval. "Alright you do that but don't overexert yourself now. It would be no good if my pupil went to the hospital cause she collapsed now. So take care Yone, I'll see you later." Mitsunari spoke as he watched her salute and begin walking away most likely to the post office. He would wait until she was out of sight before heading home himself.[/hr][/fieldbox]
A Collab between Mary and Zane
Summary: Mitsunari gathers Yone to talk and tries to work out a plan to get some confidence in her, when it comes to fighting.
Summary: Mitsunari gathers Yone to talk and tries to work out a plan to get some confidence in her, when it comes to fighting.
Having sent out a message for his pupil to meet him at their designated training field, he would be sitting upon a stump as the never ending rain fell upon the field. He wanted to have this conversation with her sooner but a certain someone quit their job which got the responsibilities shoved onto him by Eiji. Not that he minded as he could finally correct the mistakes that woman made. Granted not all the mistakes were going to be fixed right away, yet they were dealt with to the point he actually had a bit of free time. Something which should be spent on getting his pupils ready for whatever may come their way in the future. So he wasn't sure how well Yone would be accepting of this, given her reaction when situations hit the boiling point. However if she was willing to accept his help then he would try to make her a little more confident when it came to combat in general. He also had to help Sho as well, maybe teach him how to spot Genjutsu better. Thinking about it actually, Yone seemed a bit more relaxed around Sho. Mostly since he was given a report that Sho got arrested for a dispute and Yone was around the scene at the time. Maybe he should bring Sho along one day for a joint training session.
Yone almost had to drag herself to the training field which would serve as a meeting spot with Mitsunari sensei. In the past few days, she hadn't relaxed or taken it easy. No, quite the opposite. Work at the post office had claimed her free time. For the past week, which had seemed like a lifetime for the teen, was all about the post office. Mister Nomura had tried to persuade her several times that she should take it easy. Take fewer orders and packages to bring away. Or let him do some work at the ceiling and roof. But what would people say if they heard that she would let the old man do all the work? It wouldn't look nice on her resume!
Mentally she kept claiming that she had no personal attachment to see the office being restored. To see some glint in the eyes of the man that felt like a grandfather for her. Or what she assumed what a grandfather was like.
She had even refused extra payment. In a way. After all, she doubted that mister Nomura could afford the entire repairs on his own. And she could afford a bit of a lose.
Arriving at the field Yone already dreaded the idea if the entire team was there. The last time hadn't gone well. Would it now be different with Mitsunari being the jounin commander of the Rain province? Would it mean that they would get some extra payment or privileges? The man had certainly not come across as somebody who would do either. Likely the opposite. Probably being disappointed that she hadn't done any kind of formal training or dedication to her 'kunoichi' skills. At least, she could state she had worked on her stamina. Her sore back and legs made that clear.
"Uuughhh," resonated softly from Yone's mouth as she spotted the man. Heading over to the man, with her head a bit lowered she would offer a sloppy salute.
"Reporting in, sensei," Yone said, trying to mask her being wary and already tired.
The woman of the hour would arrive looking like she just went through hell. Mitsunari would be silent for a bit as he looked at her, offering her a smile. "Are you feeling alright?" he would ask her noticing she tried to look fine, yet at the same time he was sure a strong enough gust would knock her to the ground. Mitsunari would then stand up off the stump he was sitting upon and offer it to her to sit on. "So I got this funny report. Heard Sho picked a fight with a Hyuuga and Uchiha, those three got arrested. I also heard you were at the scene as well." folding his arms he would look at her before snickering as his smile broke through. "They may have a dojutsu but I'm sure you could have kicked their ass. Although for the future might want to save it for when it's allowed and won't involve jail." Mitsunari advised still smiling as he would continue on. "That situation actually brings up what I wanted to talk with you about. You aren't in trouble, yet may I ask what happened exactly? Apparently when you become the Jounin commander you get reports of what both sides say. And as Sho will grumble and groan at me asking him questions, I hope you can tell me the truth of what happened."
"Creep."
She would have likely cast a smile back and not have such a rude thought. But this wasn't a day where Yone felt at her best. Not with the rough past week. At least, it was just them. But why had a training field been their meeting spot? Already Yone feared what it could imply, though no complaint left her lips.
"I am alive, guess that is a thing," was her answer on Mitsunari's question, a light shrug following the reply. Should she ask how he had been? Probably busy if she had to make an assumption.
Then her eyes slightly widened as Mitsunari brought up the scene with the 'Hyuuga leader' and that Uchiha. Already her mind started to progress various reasons and arguments that she had done nothing wrong. Her eyes narrowed as result, growing as wary as a cornered cat. Only to become confused as Mitsunari expressed that she could have likely kicked their butts.
"Huh?"
Temporary confused on why the man would say such a thing, Yone forgot that she was tired.
"But I didn't do anything wrong. I just called out a petty liar. The leader of the Hyuuga, sure and I am the mother of the Empress," the last sentence was muttered out as Yone briefly threw a look to the right, crossing her arms out front of her chest.
The wary look shifted back on Yone's features as Mitsunari stated she wasn't in trouble, yet. What did that mean? Was he going to instruct her to do some work to make up for calling out a Hyuuga? A certain rebellious side of Yone was starting to boil and ready the teen to sneer a reply back. Only remembering that the man would likely be able to break her like a twig if he wanted to. Or probably nag for hours until she would cave in. Old people usually seem to have some talent to be good at nagging.
Only he asked what her side of the story was. Something that caused Yone to frown for a second and then only a blank expression to flow over her features.
"I believe that I have the right to remain silent, don't I?"
He had to hold in the chuckle at what she said as he was suppose to be unbiased but he didn't really roll that way. "I understand what you mean, and prepare for the shock. That kid was indeed the leader of the Hyuuga, if you can even consider someone that young a leader. Yet good to know you mother her grace." he spoke as his smile would go back to its neutral expression, when she voiced she had the right to remain silent. He nodded his head to what she said. "True you do indeed have that right. However think of it this way. What could I possibly do to you if if don't tell me? I suspend you and it looks bad on me, I kick you back to the academy and it looks bad at me. I can't really punish you for not telling me, it was more so me just asking. You don't have to spill the details. Yet if you can spare one detail.... Did Sho swing first?" he asked examining her face before moving onwards to why he brought her here. "I only planned on having a small conversation with you today, so no need to go anywhere just to take up room. I do believe you can and are a valuable assest to the team, yet your nerves fail you when things escalate more than you anticpate them too." he stated briefly giving her a look before continuing. "Is it a combat problem? Do you not trust yourself when it comes down to such acts? Is it something else that might be causing this problem? I'm willing to help you work on it, but you need to let me help you."
"What the crap," Yone said, both amazed and confused. Was that punk supposed to be a clan leader? How was that even possible? While she wasn't part of a clan Yone had learned of various clans in the Academy. The idea that the Hyuuga had somebody like that as their clan leader made her wonder how that had come to be. She wouldn't respect somebody who had chickened out as he had done. Even calling for help, only to be arrested in the process. Which was ironic and thus amusing for Yone.
The man continued and Yone wagered her options. She could rat out on Sho. But it would likely come out that she had done that. And what was the saying again? Snitches gain stitches? Sho didn't seem the kind of guy who would hold back to make her gain some stitches if he would learn she had ratted him out. Then again, had he swung first? The man did continue about that he considered her having potential to be a valuable asset to the team. She had her own doubts but wouldn't voice them. He had the right to think that, she just told herself.
When he brought up the fact she became nervous in tedious situations Yone wanted to note that the term 'nervous' was quite relative. If paired near a person who had murdered for no good reason? Then yeah, nervous would cut it. Anxious perhaps even better.
"He didn't swing first," Yone said in a calm and collective fashion. "As for my nerves," the girl said as she would pause for a second.
"I don't know. I have seen people fight. Not much of a fighter myself. Just, never killed somebody. Never thought of it when being actually educated and trained to be a kunoichi in the Academy."
Another pause followed the words of Yone as her head would turn to look away.
"I just don't know, okay? I guess I never considered going straight into a combat situation ever before. Not with the risk of losing limbs or my life."
She would state he didn't swing first which kind of made him suspicious but he wouldn't pry any further on it. "Alright I trust you then." he spoke as he would then listen in on why she was a bit panicked, the reasons she gave were perfectly fine too. Their was only one thing he couldn't however help her with. "Well I can train you to be more of a fighter. Make you slightly more comfortable when those situations arrive. However when it comes to killing, in the end its on you on how you proceed. You can let the grief overcome you and weigh you down for the rest of your life. You can also thrill for it, its messed up but those people exist. You can also live on with it always hanging over your head." Mitsunari spoke rubbing the back of his head trying to find the words to explain it. "In this job, you can't exclude killing. One day it may come to it. You know when I first killed someone, I was mortified. It was a young woman who chose a life of being a missing nin. Yet to watch the life fade from someone and know you are the cause...." stopping briefly he took a deep breath in before exhaling. "It's terrifying I won't lie to you about that. The reason I carry on is because I'm a source of hope for my clan even if it is small. Believe it or not some do consider me a role model, even if that is pretty freaking stupid if you ask me. So I chose to keep my head up and live with what I had done. Give my clan that hope they need and be a stepping stone for the future. All I can say is if you can't bring yourself to kill someone, you might want to stay away from the shinobi path. Just know that if you stay, and if you kill. I am here to talk thing through."
When Mitsunari stated he trusted her, Yone felt once more wary and confused. Deciding to not linger her thoughts about it, Yone would pay attention to what the man would continue.
As he brought up killing Yone mentally sighed. She expected him to try to act as some wise monk. Already the words were at the tip of her tongue, telling him she would think about it. Yet, the words wouldn't turn into words. Gazing at Mitsunari as he began talking about his own experience Yone wasn't sure what to think of it.
In a way, she appreciated it. It showed a good side of the man. But she wasn't certain how she should respond back without either offending him or seem too touched. Lowering her head a bit Yone remained silent. He continued on why he still carried on, even after such an experience. But she wasn't certain what she should do with his words. The meaning was clear but she couldn't make it relevant to herself. The idea of making herself a role model sounded nice. Only that she had nobody to look up to her or be proud of her. Unless it would bring in booze or only money for her father. Her mother? Yone wasn't even sure if the woman even lived in the present or what her name was.
"I don't know if it is really true," she started, still looking away, "But I guess I am just scared to end as my old man. Damn prick is more than half of the time drunk. Lost a leg as missing three fingers on his left hand. The result of a combat situation when serving at the borders. He and his unit were caught between a skirmish. Before you ask," Yone turned her head to look at Mitsunari, a clear expression that demanded he wouldn't pity or treat her different, "My mother just dumped me with that fat oaf and left. I guess that I am just scared to end up as the idiot. Drunk, miserable and that just with one combat situation gone wrong."
End up like her father? Well he was making progress if she opened up about this to him. Being injured during a skirmish which he took pretty hard apparently. Yone would then give him a look to show her no pity or treat her special, which he never planned to. If he di that to her he would have to do it for hundred others. finish explaining that her mom left her with him and she feared becoming like him, brought up the next part. "That would be the next part in those situations. Overcoming killing is one thing, yet if it leaves you scarred for life. Then you have to overcome yourself. That is something both our fathers seemed to have failed to do. I don't know if its too late but maybe you can make him see a different path in life. I can't truly say what he should do. He could always aim to be a teacher. Not like I teach you, but one that goes into detail on combat sitautions. Its one thing to particpate in battles, but offering your insight on how a battle may pan out is very vital." Mitsunari would pace a bit as this was never his strong subject. "Can't promise nothing, but you will only end up like that if you let yourself end up like it. You only lose if you choose to stop fighting."
A scoff would make it clear that Yone didn't share the hope or consider it a viable thought to see a different path in life. She even doubted that he even gave a damn about her. Why would she be able to make him suddenly care? But she would once more hold those thoughts for herself. Mitsunari probably just assumed how her situation was. Instantly the mind of the teen would push her own problems to be above that of Mitsunari. Not allowing her to consider that his youth could have been rough or even rougher than hers. He was, after all, a clan leader. Somebody who could enjoy a rich life, couldn't he?
Pushing the thoughts and questions aside Yone kept paying attention to what Mitsunari told her. She was somewhat interested in what he could teach her. Yet she hoped it wouldn't include him throwing her into some nasty situation and hope she would learn how to deal with the stress that one would undergo in combat situations.
Spitting on the ground, a challenging expression had taken form over Yone's features. "Damn that. Not going to end as some bitter fat prick," she grumbled. The mere thought was enough to piss her off.
"Fine. So I decide to continue fighting. How does that help my nerves? I learned that when a person draws a knife, the best thing you can do is to make a run for it. Yet when I made a run for it, I doubt that I did the right thing last time."
"Hear me out now." He said smiling as he held up his index finger. "This is where the lovely art of strategy comes into play. Someone pulls a knife is fine and dandy, yet you have to take facts into considerations. How well versed are they at using that knife? Are they being really agressive? Timid? Lots to consider. For example you are pretty fast at running. Say this attacker has better martial skills than you. Say hes agressive and really wants you dead. Use that to your advantage. Who said you have to show honor when you kill? Be dirty, be as dishonorable as possible. They say the strong thrive and the weak die. Know what I say? The intelligent surive and the idiots perish. So say you fake a retreat. You keep ahead of this guy by just enough to keep making him want to chase you. You sleek around a corner, place a well place paper bomb, cover it with a rock and continue running. He comes around runs over the rock and boom. You just beat someone who had far more skill. Some think battles are who is stronger than who. Its far more complex than that. You have to study your foe, a smart man can even fake it. A timid person could really be a damn skilled warrior. So running can be smart, whats smarter is to study them first. In fact test them. They pull a knife, you pull a knife. Sometimes weapons are involved for intimidation than they are to actually cause harm. "
Hearing him out, as he asked, Yone crossed her arms out front of her chest. "Huh," she frowned slightly as she eyed Mitsunari once more. "Weird, I always imagined that you were one of those crude guys who had a sense of morality and honour. But guess you're right. Only, I doubt that I can think of so many questions and then do something and not give into instincts and just run."
Yet Yone did realise that she had never tried to give it any thought. "Okay, I guess it is worth a try. But how can I practice it? Unless you are now advising me to look up people with knives and a short temper."
He laughed at bit about what she thought he was, a crude man with morals and honour. "In this age Yone that will get you killed. Unless you are a damn war god, probably should shown some skeptism around people. It's after all how we as humans learn wether to trust or feign trust" Mitsunari answered that before moving on to her next question on how to practice it. " Well we can ease your way into it. Only way you may find someone with a knife is a petty criminal or a potential target on a mission. Which if I feel the team wont kill each other first. I may consider doing. But easing your way into it is something I can do. Practical experience would be regular combat. So it wouldn't be fair to compete against me but Sho on the other hand would be more productive. I will arrange for him and you to spar with each other with me spectating just in case someone doesn't stop punching."
"I guess," she responded at first. Realising she was getting less tense now that they were talking and Mitsunari didn't seem as a bad guy, Yone almost felt the need to tense up. As if it would be bad to lower her guard for the man. Deciding to not bother too much with how the man was talking or teaching her, Yone continued to pay attention to what he said.
"Heh," snickering she could imagine that the team could very well start to target each other. Not a really funny image but she dreaded that it was indeed the reality.
"Yeah, no. I am not going to challenge Sho to a fight. I might not be the sharpest tool in the shed, sensei, but giving Sho a reason to release some pent up aggression or anger on me? I rather not, thank you." Yone said, really not finding it a smart idea. Perhaps Sho would find some fun in it but she certainly could imagine that it would be just a session of pain and regret. Much like how her mother probably felt after her father had made her pregnant, Yone thought to herself, slightly disturbed.
Well she was quick to decline sparring against Sho, and her reason was just. "Well that would be the point in me spectating but can't really force you on that...." Mitsunari said as he tapped his chin trying to think of someone she could spar without fearing being pounded. "Well if not Sho then what about my younger brother Sintra. He is as calm as it gets and has some experience to be a slight challenge.... I think." he spoke as he continued to think of people. "I could always borrow someone from Etsu's team... Oh! Thats and idea. I'll give you the choice here before I start enforcing. You can challenge Sintra, or team up with Sho to have a friendly spar against Etsu's two pupils. Which would you prefer?" Mitsunari said folding his arms as he gave a small smile to her. For someone that was afraid of most combat situations, she was assertive when she wanted to be. She was more like Sho than she realised.
Yone once more wavered. But it was probably better than Sho Deshuga. Nodding slowly Yone made it evident that she was more content with the suggestion of Mitsunari's younger brother.
He would continue on to suggest something and Yone once more found herself wavering.
"I think that I will risk facing your sibling. Sho might be a good guy and all, but I am not going to risk the unknown yet. Perhaps after I gain a bit more experience I might be more acceptive of the idea."
Nodding his head he would begin making plans once he returned home. "Alright probably wise. After all Etsu probably has those two on the same wavelength by now knowing her. Well I shall begin making preparations for this spar. I'll send you a note when to arrive. Who knows show me some promise and I'll think about getting this team it's first low rank mission. Nothing too serious as that requires teamwork but something to add to your record pretty much. Genin level you could say. So unless you have something you wish to discuss then you are free to go."
"Perhaps something with some bonus to it, hm? Could always use extra motivation in the form of money," Yone brought up, though she doubted that Mitsunari would do that.
"I guess that I have nothing on mind right now. Guess you're busy these days, so I might be great in phrasing it but I am grateful for... this lesson, kinda."
Scratching behind her right ear Yone looked away for a moment before she would speak up and look once more in Mitsunari's direction.
"Well, you know what I am probably going to do. Old man Nomura is going to repair the last damage to his post office. I am going to help cause... got nothing better to do, anyways. So, yeah, see ya sensei." Her words were followed by a salute as Yone turned around and thought about what they had discussed.
He gave a shrug and smile at her first question. "Do a perfect job and who knows." he stated not showing it but being a bit happy she was grateful for their talk and gave her a nod of approval. "Alright you do that but don't overexert yourself now. It would be no good if my pupil went to the hospital cause she collapsed now. So take care Yone, I'll see you later." Mitsunari spoke as he watched her salute and begin walking away most likely to the post office. He would wait until she was out of sight before heading home himself.[/hr][/fieldbox]