She was the village vixen: Kii Yamanaka. Everything about her was graceful, hypnotizing, and devastating all at once. The way her pale, ash blonde hair swayed loosely, just above her wide hips made even Konoha's elders drool- though they shouldn't have been looking anyways. Men swooned at her full, pouting, cherry blossom stained lips, having not the slightest idea of what words were being said to them. The village vixen, with her porcelain skin, tiny waist, and bright hazel eyes, was untouchable. Kii was bright, yes. Possibly the most intelligent of the bunch when she was an academy student. But she was closed off. Don't get me wrong, she had plenty of friends and was well-known throughout the entire village, she just never let a man too close. I remember her telling me how she would always be a free bird. She says "Relationships are such a waste of time in a live or die world, don't you think, Goto-san? Here, you have to be smart. Putting your loved ones in constant peril is not smart." I remember just smiling at this, silently pleading with her to change her mind, to take back her words. They hurt. I was madly in love with her. Her beauty, her carefree attitude, and her intelligence made her perfect, especially for me. I wanted the best and nothing less. Now that I reflect back upon my feelings, I wonder if I ever did love her. Love calls for desperate measures, doesn't it? Just as I find a reason to justify my actions of the past, I feel selfish and I am pulled back into my everlasting guilt. Even now, I don't fully comprehend why I did it, why I pushed her, why I helped in the murder and attempted murder of our two, bright, beautiful girls. I apologize. I'm jumping all over the place. I just.. can't seem to get my thoughts together. Maybe we'll talk about this another time? Then we will start with my first sin.