Marylyn Castas Memorial Hospital

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Alex was sat in the back of an ambulance, not a large one that you usually see, a small car with "ambulance" written all over it, for minor incidents and first responders. He was soon going to be released back into the community after a year of madness, then he'd be on his own, more-so than even now. This facility he was on his way to, more of a care facility than anything. He was very nervous, his mouth and throat were as dry as a desert, his heart racing, he felt queasy and lightheaded, a feeling he was all too familiar with but was not used to in the slightest. The minutes stretched on as they went along to the new hospital, feeling more like hours. He stared intently out of the window not looking at anything outside just away from the inside of the ambulance, he knew who was in there with them, his grizzly and morbid companions. Maybe he could open the door and fall out onto the road? Be smashed and scraped to pieces along the surface of the road? Or maybe fall under the wheels of a vehicle behind them? No, that wouldn't work, this door is probably locked and he wouldn't want to curse this paramedic with re-occurring visions of this instant.

After a while they arrived, on a well-kept road through a thick forest. He swore he could see something in the trees, wrong things, like the ones in the other passenger seats. They pulled to a stop outside a gate which soon opened, and then again in a car park outside this quite large but still inviting building. A gilded cage is still a cage. He heard the engine stop and a door open, then the sound of fabric on fabric and the door closing again. The paramedic went around the front of the car and to Alex's door, then opened it. Alex was up and out of the vehicle in an instant and standing beside the paramedic, a friendly and burly man in his 30's, tall too. He escorted Alex to the front desk and did the talking for him, checking him in. A nurse, a friendly-looking older woman then gave him a tour of the place, all he was interested in was somewhere quiet and his. Accommodations, that's where the tour ended. He got inside, there were two beds in the room, he would be sharing, he hoped that it would work, he doubted it, though. After the door closed he sat down and put his suitcase under the bed. A face looked up at him from under the bed. One of the wrong-things that shared his journey here, he called it "Wither", completely devoid of pigmentation, looking starved and far too thin and tall and blank to be human, it would sit, and stare at him usually at night, all night, every night, rarely came out at day. He spat at it and pushed his suitcase in it's face. Then lied back on his new bed in his new room and waited for his new roommate.
Cass had her head leaning on the window as she looked into the forest around the road as her case manager drove her up to where she would 'recover'. 'More than likely go even more crazy.' she thought to her self as they approached the building which was pretty big in her opinion. soon she and her case manager walked in with Cass looking around. Place got an A for effort but still it had the vibe, some of the look and definetly the smell. 'welcome to where you belong freak' her inner tormentor went. Seems even now she can't catch a break with this thing. then again it was why she was even here, or at least one of the reasons. Her case manager at the desk already so she quickly caught up. The case manager did most of the talking and handed over a copy of her file for her doc to look at. After that she was first patted down for hidden contraband that CPS didn't find seems they heard of her ability to hide stuff on her. After losing her last razor and emergency smoke pack and lighter she got a tour of the place. seems they did their best to avoid the evil, horror haunted house look. Still was unnerving to her especially since therapists worked here in all likelyhood. While she knew the one that saw to her 'problem' though her tormentor was teling her it was she shook her head and the thoughts off. soon enough she came to the end of the tour and to her room. and it seemed that she had a roommate. A guy who looked to be an adult. shruging she enters and gives a hey sign puting her stuff down on the bed. The place seemed cheery and all but it didn't sink down to the deeper reaches of her brain which was as dark as ever.
 
Alex, by the time Cass had got into the room they now shared, was already asleep. He snored lightly and murmured occasionally, this would be the first time he had slept for over 50 hours, his nerves preventing him from doing so.
His back was turned to her on the bed, his bed clothes had been used to cover up the windows, as well as the drawn curtains, he had barricaded the window so no sunlight could get through. He did this as he was nervous about a sniper or a hell beast or something, seeing him and taking his life from him in an agonizing manner. A simple delusion he would tell himself but when his symptoms emerged, there was no convincing him as logic was strewn away in favour of panic and paranoia.
The door closing was what woke him up with a start, his eyes blinked open and he jumped slightly, he realized where he was and braced himself to see who or what was behind him, he slowly got up to a sitting position on the bed and looked over to see a teenage girl with dark hair and piercings. He muttered and stammered out a greeting.
"Uh... H-hello..." He uttered. "I'm Alex..." He said dully as he rubbed his eyes with his hands.
 
"yoh I'm Cassandra. just call me Cass." she says to him looking at the blocking out of the window. "Guess you were the one responsible for that?" she asks. she didn't mind too much as some sad stuff can help at times. This happened to be one of them so it made the Tormentor shut up which was good. New people were always the worst with meeting up. She while keeping her eyes on him, trying to be polite as he was her roommate and fights would no go well, unpacks her bags disappointed that her pencil had also been removed. She still had her Sketchpad and books plus writing paper but only crayons to do it with. "Damn can't they at least give us a marker or something?" she says mostly to herself but left it open to speculation. As she reaches into her bag for clothes and other basic supplies her wrist-bands going a fair bit up slid down slightly showing white,sterile though slightly bloodstained gauze.
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After introducing each other he looks over his shoulder.
"The shroud...? Will that prove problematic?" He inquired mildly. He got up slowly and got the bed clothes down from over the window, there was now quite a bit more light in the room. He groaned slightly as the light hit his eyes. He took the bed sheets and got to remaking his bed.
"I would think someone could muster up a marker for you, if you asked them..." He added as he made his bed. Looking up he saw some section of bloodied bandage, he frowned faintly at the sight in empathy. He knew a reason was needed to be here in the first place but for someone so young to be doing that to themselves made him feel unpleasant.
 
"You didn't have to do that." Cass says blinking at the sudden brightness in the room. "Well you know who I could ask?" she asks as soon as her eyes adjusted to the light. She catches the look of empathy and was about to lash out, mistaking it for pity which always infuriated her. She was by no means worthy of it, at least in her minds eye. A freak of nature who couldn't love the sex she was supposed to love. Plus the general deal of pity has sat wrong with her though back before she still wore the mask she did have a lot for those around her. "So you going to ask? everyone who sees the gauze always asks something about it." she says laying down on the bed sounding mentally exhauisted as the fury has left her drained. extremely energizing emotions often did that to her.@DrKiril
 

Day 1

This place doesn't seem so bad. I feel less alone here and nobody expects me to be well. It's a relief right now. I don't have to try to pretend. Was never good at it anyway. There are a lot of young people here. It's really sad that anyone that young should have to go through this kind of pain. It sucks your life away. I really hope that they can get better. I met with my doctor today. I'm still not sure how I feel about her. She said she didn't think I needed to be here, that daily visits to a therapist should suffice for my treatment. I told her I needed a break from the world right now. She agreed that if I feel I need it, then I do. This is fine for now. Some might feel like this is a prison. It's fairly strict. But I did my research. This place was supposed to be one of the better hospitals. It will be okay. It will be okay.


I still feel like I have to start over every time I have a new doctor. But I hope that this time will be a little easier. She asked me about my job. I couldn't answer. Had a panic attack. And about my love life. I couldn't answer, had another panic attack. And about family. And my interests. Had another panic attack. Didn't accomplish much. I hope the new medications will help. I want to stop being scared.
Matt caught a glimpse of something flying toward him and it landed near his waist on the bed. It was a blue marker. He looked over at his roommate, surprised at her generous offer. "Thank you," he said with genuine surprise and gratitude, "Zoe," he added as she introduced herself. He offered her a small, close lipped smile and went back to his writing, the marker making the task much easier. He wished he'd thought of bringing in markers. Honestly, he'd been proud he'd been able to muster up the creativity of using a crayon when they'd told him no pens or pencils.

His hand still shook a bit as he wrote, his nerves not quite over the assault of the doctor's questions, as innocent as they were. He was frayed, sensitive to what should be the most normal things and cried easily. Bad company and a mind that was very good at being convincing had worn him down over the years. He needed a place where it was okay to feel what he felt and not be judged for it.

He closed the notebook. It was cloth bound, a composition style notebook. The wire in the spirals could be used for self harm. He'd figured that one out for himself. He'd once tried to use a guitar string to cut off his airways. It was easy to be creative with the materials you had around you, if you really wanted to.

He slipped the notebook back under his pillow. It was hardly a secure place to keep such private thoughts, but he found he didn't much care if someone read it. What could he hide here, anyway? If someone was that curious to dig into his personal things, let them. He had little motivation to care at this point.

He slid down so his head lay on the pillow, facing the wall, and tried to sleep, just as the nurse came round to inform them dinner would be in 15 minutes. He grit his teeth in annoyance. He wanted to sleep off his emotional day, and was already ready to test the waters of ignoring the request of dinner and stay in bed.
 
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Kalani left the doctor's office with the nurse, feeling as if her heart had been thoroughly dissected before being stitched back together with little finesse. All those questions made her so uncomfortable. Why would anything she said matter to them? If she said something wrong, she would put her family or teachers–possibly both–in an unfavorable light. But they had done nothing wrong, so why couldn't they just treat her like the problem and not make everything so ambiguous?

At least some of the questions made sense; they were actually about her, and very easy to answer. "What are your hobbies?" Reading and writing. "How are you feeling?" Fine. Of course, there were the painful questions, too: "Why do you read when you should be working?" Um...I don't know. "Why do you not know?" I...don't know. Overall, she was very glad it was over. In fact, other people who had finished visiting their own doctor were crying or shivering, so she had come out relatively unscathed.

Kalani went back to her room, finally able to enjoy the solitude that it brought her. She grabbed the crayon (a horrible tool for writing, but it would do) and looked over her story once more. There were thankfully no grammatical errors, as she kept a careful eye out for those, but some of the words she used seemed relatively boring. After some thought, she created an appendix behind her story to write all of the words and their replacements.

As she wrote, she wondered when dinner would start. She wasn't too hungry, but this would be her first dinner without her family, so it was certainly unusual, as was this place in general. Sitting on her chair and writing, Kalani wondered when she would finally get over the fact that she was in this place.
 
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Alex murmured an apology to Cass at her and felt anger raising in himself at her harsh tone. He certainly felt ashamed at feeling irritated at a child like this, not wishing to escalate the situation by chiming in, he left the room quickly, arms by his side and clenched into fists. He was more annoyed with himself but the anger at the girl, Cass did remain in his mind, the horrid flames of fury burning in his muscles as he left the room and wandered down the halls.

He though he could control his temper for more than five minutes interacting and not be so damned foolish, he hated being stared at, why did you have to stare, you fool, you worthless bastard, you creep, you're just like your father. He heard whispering in his ear, around his head, in front of him, inside him. A primal yell like one a great ape would make before attacking roared past his lips as he swung at the concrete wall with his fist and the momentum of the blow ceased the moment he encountered the wall as a crack of bone on emitted from his hand. He continued to swing and jap and hook at the wall, left, right, left, right, until his fists were bloodied and swollen, he got blood on the floor and his clothes and face. He had to be restrained, still thrashing and swearing. It was all upon him now.
 
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