If there's one thing I hate more than anything else, it's feeling like a burden to others on any way, shape, or form; and that's exactly what I feel like right now in my current situation. To put it very simply, I have but one friend, a friend whom him and I are as close as can be, or as least were. So I made a mistake many months ago, waaay back in the beginning of last year even, and it pissed him off; perhaps a little more than it ought to have, but I don't blame him. However, given how much time has pass, one would think he's calmed down by now, and seeing how he's willing to talk and hang out again, it would be safe for me to assume as much. Except apparently that's not the case, because just a few days ago he decide to make it explicitly clear that he still hates me. This shocked me so much that I've since been ignoring his constant message whilst I try to interpret what the hell is going through his thick skull right now. First off, why? If he really does still hate me like he claims, why has he decided to start talking to me again? Not that I'm complaining, I'm just glad to not be totally alone anymore, but it just doesn't feel right hang out with someone fully knowing the animosity they have towards me. He put it as "tolerating me" which doesn't make much sense to me given the circumstances, but that still begs the question as to why he's doing so. What's his incentive? Does he pity me because he knows I lack friends? Does he feel bad for being so mean to me, but is too proud to admit it? No no, those wouldn't make any sense. So what could it be? I don't understand! Also, I need to clarify that it's him who is constantly trying to contact me, and like always, he's the one who initiates the conversations. He even came to me and said that he'd be willing to talk again, long after I had given up trying to reason with him. None of which makes much sense if he really is just tolerating me and only proceeds to confuse me even more. I've always had trouble trying to understand this guy's feelings, he's never been very good at expression (kinda like me), but this is just ridiculous. I honestly don't know what to, that's why I'm here asking for help.