If you ever met me personally you would never have guess I would be a person who was lonely. I frequently smile, help others, try to be courteous and try to keep others morale up but just consistently I feel lonely. I don't feel like I click at all with people. It feels much more forced than I believe it has to be. I just feel awkward and uncomfortable and I work at retail with people who are crazy and I can usually keep my cool there! I just don't understand why I can't seem to get friends. I usually spend many nights alone and I see numerous amount of my friends going to parties and hanging with multitudes of friends. Sometimes I join in but I just don't feel truly happy or at ease there. I've had very little to no contact in the past couple of months beside work with people. I usually just walk at the park, play video games, eat and sleep. I just don't have much people to talk wth and if I do it is very few and they eventually leave and we don't talk again. I've had multiple bad relationships with people but I don't want to stay reclused like this. I try to get more friends it just doesn't seem to work out. It is causing my depression to just worsen and I try to avoid it by eating healthily and constantly going to therapy but I just feel like it is all pointless when I am generally not happy with my social life. I just find it odd I can approach numerous people in store and strike up a conversation and yet I have nothing to show for it outside of the environment.