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GuanYue
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Something that some people that are familiar with me might know is that I have anxiety. Not just anxiety about the situations I am currently in, or just what's going on around me. It's not just anxiety about talking to people or going to places. It's not just worrying. What I have is chronic anxiety that I really truly believe is ingrained in me. My mother, younger sister, and a few years back found out my mom's father all have severe anxiety that they've had to live with for the majority of their adult lives. Every little aspect of life is a struggle. Things that I've done countless of times, suddenly in one moment after an anxiety attack, I can't do it anymore. I don't remember how to. I become consistently absent from school and work. I become 'unreliable' in terms of attendance because some days I just can't leave my room, as if I've somehow become agoraphobic. Some days I forget how to talk. Some days I can barely move. I cry at everything, even happy things. Exciting events can send me into an anxiety attack. And it makes me paranoid about absolutely everything. The smallest comment or gesture could mean my world is close to crumbling. I live in constant fear, yet the threat is nothing except my own mind. It affects my health. I'm either an insomniac or I'm lethargic. I either cling for attention or become completely disassociate. My body aches. I suffer from a constant state of dehydration because my stress is endless. It's a torturous way to live, and it doesn't matter how much medication I take, how many therapy sessions I go to, what breathing or mental exercises I do, it will never ever go away.
This thread is dedicated to my ramblings on anxiety, and how it is not a singularly defined disorder. I'll also touch up on how it effects others in my life, what I've had to endure, and what I continue to struggle with. I hope to gain a better perspective by writing it down and maybe finding a way to actually help myself where I hadn't before. If there's anyone reading this, you're welcome to PM me about your thoughts or how you may deal with your anxiety, or whatever may have you.
This thread is dedicated to my ramblings on anxiety, and how it is not a singularly defined disorder. I'll also touch up on how it effects others in my life, what I've had to endure, and what I continue to struggle with. I hope to gain a better perspective by writing it down and maybe finding a way to actually help myself where I hadn't before. If there's anyone reading this, you're welcome to PM me about your thoughts or how you may deal with your anxiety, or whatever may have you.