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I never really talk about about my experiences throughout my life;
I see no point in constantly explaining to people why I am the way I am today.
But I feel like it's my time to talk- to just share what I've been so ashamed of.
When I was 12, I went to the hospital for extreme cramps.
I had started my period the year before (Sorry if TMI) but these cramps were nothing I had ever experienced.
When I was 12, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer.
A cell in my ovaries became out of control, turning very cancerous.
During the duration of my life after that, I remember loosing myself.
I wasn't the little girl that would make up games with her friends and laugh all night; majority of my older childhood, I spent in an uncomfortable bed in a boring white room. I turned angry and resentful towards those around me because I was the one that had to be sick, as if I had done something so terribly wrong in my short years and was being punished for it.
It was hard coming out of the rut- especially for having my life change completely.
But somehow, I did it.
It wasn't a complete honorable story about how I overcame cancer but more of a story of me finally finding myself, even in such a shitty situation.
But, now being 19, I can happily say I am cancer free and have been for two years.
I go to school (which I had been so excited about- homeschooling drove me insane) and interact in a way I thought was never possible for me.
I even went the extra mile of inspiring to be an actress.
I don't know why I felt I needed to tell this story.
I guess, I just feel like people loose themselves a lot, it sucks and it seems like the end, but it isn't.
I don't know.
This is extremely personal and I'm sure its weird how I can openly post it out there for strangers over the internet but it was my time to talk.
I see no point in constantly explaining to people why I am the way I am today.
But I feel like it's my time to talk- to just share what I've been so ashamed of.
When I was 12, I went to the hospital for extreme cramps.
I had started my period the year before (Sorry if TMI) but these cramps were nothing I had ever experienced.
When I was 12, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer.
A cell in my ovaries became out of control, turning very cancerous.
During the duration of my life after that, I remember loosing myself.
I wasn't the little girl that would make up games with her friends and laugh all night; majority of my older childhood, I spent in an uncomfortable bed in a boring white room. I turned angry and resentful towards those around me because I was the one that had to be sick, as if I had done something so terribly wrong in my short years and was being punished for it.
It was hard coming out of the rut- especially for having my life change completely.
But somehow, I did it.
It wasn't a complete honorable story about how I overcame cancer but more of a story of me finally finding myself, even in such a shitty situation.
But, now being 19, I can happily say I am cancer free and have been for two years.
I go to school (which I had been so excited about- homeschooling drove me insane) and interact in a way I thought was never possible for me.
I even went the extra mile of inspiring to be an actress.
I don't know why I felt I needed to tell this story.
I guess, I just feel like people loose themselves a lot, it sucks and it seems like the end, but it isn't.
I don't know.
This is extremely personal and I'm sure its weird how I can openly post it out there for strangers over the internet but it was my time to talk.
