Before I get to the main reason for posting this, I need to let off some steam. Today has sucked balls. On top of my insomnia, this cold I have and the side effects of my new birth control method, I no longer can wear eyebrow jewelry. Reason why? My clumsy boyfriend skull bashed me in the fucking eye. It's bruised now and what's worse is it sabotaged the skin of that brow piercing. I have to now deal with having that ugly bruised flesh everyday, everywhere I go. I'm also sad I can't wear my barbells anymore. :[ He doesn't seem to care, either. Or even be sorry. I know this was an accident, but I can't help but feel that he's joyful about this damage I've received. He never did find my piercings attractive... I don't give a fuck, okay? It's my face - I do what I want. Anyway...... Math. Lots of you know I'm struggling with this subject. It's the ONE thing that holds me back from succeeding in the world. Can't take chemistry until I meet college math standards, can't graduate until I take such and such... I've gotten tutoring, I've tried different profs, I've even had my math genius boyfriend mentor me. I'm hopeless. I failed my mid-term miserably. I got a 26% on it. Right now, I have a 40% F grade in my math class. This results from poor grading on some other assignments. There are a few tests left, plus the final, but I don't know if it's worth it to keep on trucking. I've already been rejected from WWU because of "too many admissions", so I should just give up before I get another F on my records. It will be a while until I can make it into that school, sooo I feel like I can take all the fucking time I need. But nooo... Family and boyfriend are telling me to keep trying. I don't know about them, but I hate to put all my efforts into something just to fail. .__.; I can't say I've never tried, either. Here's the scoop: I've failed 4 math classes in my lifetime. High school is the first 2. I even had to go to summer school to earn those credits, or else I wouldn't have gotten my diploma. The other 2 are in college. I failed Elementary Algebra (Math 98) the first time I took it. Last quarter, I failed my Intermediate Algebra (Math 99). In ALL of those classes, I did my best and still failed. This one, I don't think I should give that chance. I'm doing horribly. And I don't think I can get it from that low of an F to a C in 3 weeks. I'm wondering if I should just give up this environmental studies pursuit and go to the Bellingham Tech College. Less school, classes more relevant to my interests. Sounds good to me. They have a veterinary technician program I'd love to get in on. The reason I've not enrolled is because my boyfriend and his family don't want me too. They say I won't be successful and I must go to a university to get a Bachelors or better. I don't want to impress your family anymore, Karl. All I'm doing is getting hurt... If I'm not good enough or smart enough, then get rid of me already. ...advice? <3 To withdraw or not to withdraw from evil math 99 classu.