Quinn,
I know we joke and I can be heavily sarcastic in chats, but I'm putting that all aside for this response.
I've been where you are. Sometimes it seems like others may say I'm there now, though life lessons have taught me more or less to push through no matter what. Others' opinions be damned. Depression is a hell of a thing and, as some have said before me, it can be very hard to climb out of. In these times, it's important to surround yourself with people who care. I do not know you well, nor do we interact often, but I care. Always remember that you can contact me whenever you may need, If only just to rant and have someone listen.
I have to agree with all of the suggestions made before. A therapist or a doctor would be excellent starting places. Reach out, no matter how hard it is, and I promise you: If you make the effort, you will get through this.
Muna <3