Hi there. This is not a normal advice wanting topic and this is not a normal problem. I... am lost in a struggle to know how, no, why everything is the way it is. And I don't mean knowledge like physics or chemistry, though I do have the very basics of those subjects, I mean philosophical/esoteric knowledge about the nature of the universe, starting with our dimension. You see, I have to know, I can not live if I don't know. I get these tons of information, so this topic is not really made to ask for a resources, I have ample of those, but because for some reason I seem to be unable to made accurate deductions based on what I know (which is not too little). The latter is not entirely true, because I am able to see basic pattern and understand some occurrences in a better way, but it's not enough. So... whatever you feel like writing would be interesting for me to read. If I were to formulate a concrete question, that would be: how do I see patterns and form deductions based on previous knowledge. Sounds like a skill taught in elementary school, does it? Well it's not that easy.