I'm just gonna jump right in. Lately, I've been going through a really rough patch, and it's starting to break me down. Everything has been a problem lately. School work, issues with peers, family happenings, just everything. I could go into detail. Surely the schoolwork has been taken care of, but I still have trouble with certain things. And the students at my school are still a problem. I'm a pushover, and no one takes me seriously. Then there's the family issues. I'd rather not go into detail about this one, it happened today and I think it's what triggered my thoughts about all the bad things happening right now. Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore. I'm always hiding behind a happy facade. Always smiling, laughing, just being nice. But no one knows that I'm really breaking and that's what sucks. I hate to say it, but not even my best friends can tell the difference. Maybe it's just because I'm bipolar, the mental condition was inherited from my father. He committed suicide back in 2011, and I think that's the biggest thing that's been bothering me. I don't think I'll end up like him, though, so you don't have to worry. I say I'm strong but I just think that strength is either a facade as well, or it's just dulling day by day. I'm only 14, almost 15. And I've already been through so much shit. I have my whole life ahead of me, but right now, quite frankly, I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'd really appreciate if someone can lend some advice or just words to cheer me up. Sorry if this post is scatter-brained, I'm just really not motivated right now, for anything.