I worked Monday through Friday this week, and things were going great at first but Every other day I came across some mishaps during work. I normally work as a cashier at this establishment, and took great pride in the fact that I hardly ever messed up orders and was hardly ever short or over on my drawer at the end of my shift. Before I left for vacation I had only messed up one order after having been an employee for a little over a month, and right before my winter vacation in Canada. I recently got back from vacation because my new school semester has started, and I obviously went back to work. Last week I had no problems. I was on the ball like I had been before, but this week....this week just felt horribly wrong at first and it didn't become a definite problem until the first mistake I made at work. On Tuesday I had messed up two orders as cashier, I messed up two more on Wednesday, and then two more today. Not only was I messing up but having several altercations with one of my managers Judy, who inevitably wrote me up on Wednesday. she said the reasoning behind it was something along the lines of "You have not been listening, you have messed up two orders this week, and have been trying to talk back to me." which I personally feel is a bit harsh, but that's a story for another post. Regardless I knew I deserved it to some degree. Today, work started a bit rocky. My managers do not like it if you come in too early or if you stay in the shop after your shift ends. Today I thought I was scheduled for 11:45 like I had been all week, but after I clocked in today Judy goes "Why are you here you do not start until noon". I wasn't sure if she was correct or not so I asked her if she was sure, and irritated she checks her sheet and sure enough it says noon on it. She says "I'm never wrong Kaden." obviously irritated and returns to her work and I head in the back of the store just to stay out of everyone's way until its time for me to clock in. I think she was mostly irritated with the fact that I was questioning her rather than being there to early. Regardless, I shrugged it off and tried to stay positive. I just chopped it up to me being wrong but at least I was on time for work. Things were fine after that until about three. Some co-workers shifts had ended so it was only a few of us working, and most the employees were in the back prepping for night shift. I had been moved over to Expo, because I was confidant I would not make any mistakes there since I hadn't earlier in the week. At expo all you really have to do is make sure people get their correct orders, and send them off in a friendly manner. However, there were only three of us working up front and five others (including my managers) in the back. I noticed no one was working our sandwich station so I attempted to do both Expo and SSP at the same time. I had asked a new employee for help but they refused because they "Didnt want to get flamed" for doing something he wasn't supposed to. My other co-worker was talking to a customer so I assumed he was ringing them up at cashier. I admit at this point I was starting to feel over whelmed due to the lack of help, and even after Mark, my other manager, came out to do the sandwiches I had already lost focus. I ended up giving someone the wrong take out order. Anyways, I almost got fired today since this had been my third mistake this week and right after having been written up. The only reason I wasn't is because I ended up having a panic attack shortly after both my managers started bombarding me with questions on how I screwed up AGAIN, and what was going on. Realizing that I was having an attack my manager Judy (who is typically the harshest of the two) eased up on me and I explained to her that I had gotten over whelmed because I was trying to do to much at once. She asked my why I didnt ask for help, and I told her that I had asked our new employee. They both told me to clock out, and she brought me to the back and asked me what was going on. She told me that they were very confused and didn't understand whats going on especially since I received proper training. "This isn't the Kaden that we know, you have never made such big mistakes before." and I told her I really didn't know what was going on and I realized I had never been so horrible at my job. I told her that I was having troubles keeping focused, and I told her that I was thinking about asking my doctor for my ADHD meds again. She asked if I was on them now, and I told her I hadn't since I was in the tenth grade. She asked if I was having troubles in school as well and I told her yes. So after that little explanation she said that I need to make an appointment as soon as possible and then sent me on my way. My problem is that my family no longer has a family doctor, and while I do have the insurance (now) I have no idea where to go to even begin the process to acquire these medications again. My mom also told me that the process could take months, which is time I don't have. My job is literally on the line right now and I have no idea what to do. I feel like I hadn't been myself at all this week. I feel like I had taken ten steps back from where I was, and I was in a GOOD place. I'm starting to get scared, because I don't want to get fired and I don't want to go back to where I previously was before I got the job. I don't know what to do, I'm really worried that I will keep messing up when I go to work the up coming week and that they are going to fire me. I also have another problem with my work environment but I was thinking about making that into another post entirely.