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AirQuest
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I feel like I have two personalities when I meet people to RP with. I'm probably too sensitive, and I don't know how to help that.
When I'm at my best I'm laid-back, friendly to a point of just doing whatever my partner wants, there are very few things I'll actually draw a line over. I can be a bit scatter brained at times, I like sharing whatever random thought is in my head. The point is when I feel like my partner likes, and wants to be friends with me, I'm very friendly in return.
The problem is when people don't react well to me, I go into like this panic mode, where I'm certain they hate me, and I'm doing everything to try, and change their mind, and it feels like the harder I try to win them over, the more they misinterpret me, or get offended or whatever, and I feel even worse about it.
I'm also really quick to take every minor, misunderstanding as hatred. It's like; "If they got mad over this misunderstanding, it's going to happen again." and then I really want to ditch them, but I'm really sensitive, and would feel really horrible, so I think in a subconscious way I kind of push them away first, even though I hate losing people.
I think to a certain extent, when I go into whiny-panic mode, I do it because I rarely get apologies. I care a lot about other people, so when I've upset someone, I apologize, whole-heartedly. The problem is most people reply to my apology with something like "it's fine" ...And my brain goes; "Clearly it's not fine. They freaking hate you. If it was fine, their response would have been like; "Hey don't beat yourself up, it was just a misunderstanding, I'm sorry too, I shouldn't have overreacted like I did."
I feel lost, how do you people deal with this?
When I'm at my best I'm laid-back, friendly to a point of just doing whatever my partner wants, there are very few things I'll actually draw a line over. I can be a bit scatter brained at times, I like sharing whatever random thought is in my head. The point is when I feel like my partner likes, and wants to be friends with me, I'm very friendly in return.
The problem is when people don't react well to me, I go into like this panic mode, where I'm certain they hate me, and I'm doing everything to try, and change their mind, and it feels like the harder I try to win them over, the more they misinterpret me, or get offended or whatever, and I feel even worse about it.
I'm also really quick to take every minor, misunderstanding as hatred. It's like; "If they got mad over this misunderstanding, it's going to happen again." and then I really want to ditch them, but I'm really sensitive, and would feel really horrible, so I think in a subconscious way I kind of push them away first, even though I hate losing people.
I think to a certain extent, when I go into whiny-panic mode, I do it because I rarely get apologies. I care a lot about other people, so when I've upset someone, I apologize, whole-heartedly. The problem is most people reply to my apology with something like "it's fine" ...And my brain goes; "Clearly it's not fine. They freaking hate you. If it was fine, their response would have been like; "Hey don't beat yourself up, it was just a misunderstanding, I'm sorry too, I shouldn't have overreacted like I did."
I feel lost, how do you people deal with this?