Ok, so currently my life is going in the wrong direction. Everything is going sour. I'm losing a lot of my friends because I'm so focused on my schoolwork, my immune system is down the drain and I'm being begged to make decisions that are too much for me. I repeatedly have an existential crisis (if you don't know what that is see here http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existential_crisis) about why I exist, why I am allowed to be alive, why I'm on this planet. I always feel lost, like I have no idea who I am. My BPD (again see here http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder) has me flying into rages with my aunt, so I am no longer speaking to any of my cousins who are her children, her husband or her. I also attempted suicide a few months ago, and to be completely honest, I'm ready to try again. I really don't know why I'm telling the Internet this but, yeah. So.. Any ideas?