Actually more like: >:[
I am feeling very up and down right now. I've been like this for the past month. >>; I'll get super depressed, then super happy, then super pissy, and the cycle goes on and on and on.
There's nothing really wrong with ME. o__o Most of it is the on-going fight against "the past" (even when you get in to a good place in life, it never goes away completely. You still have work with it.) and a combination of a really bad PMS and now four days late period. >:[ Which is making me PARANOID. Cause my big sister is preggo and if I end up preggo too, I feel like I'll be taking away her spotlight. D: Not to mention how horrified I'd be to have a baby. (Sooo not mentally ready!)
The rest of it is a frustration in dealing with -all the other cranky people-. Summer is a very high stress season both online and off. x___x Lots of people online are getting snippy about stuff, and then I get to hear about the latest drama from my family. Which makes me REALLY GRATEFUL that I now live in my own place with people that don't drag me down in to chaos. But at the same time makes me wish there was something I could do to get my parents out of their death spiral. Throw in my guys only getting one off day every other week and the whole house is pissy.
SO basically, when someone asks "How do you feel/doing" all THAT is going on. But I can't really say that, cause then they'll think "Poor Poor Diana" and assume I am super stressed and having a terrible time. XD Which isn't true... All of this is just a drop in the bucket compared to what my life USED to be like. So it's no biggie.
However, it does still make me moody. D: So I am going to be all GRRRR until I finally get my period and have some release. (Or find out I'm preggo... then everyone should be scared. >>; )