It's hard to deny that, right now, amidst all this shit the day has thrown at us, I feel like a total girl with this dramatic way I've been acting, mostly credited to that whole, y'know, third person narration thing that's making this about 83 times more intense than it actually is.
Truth is, yeah, I guess, maybe, I like both of them, but, this isn't some, like, nonregular (that a word?) thing where I've totally just mentally spilled my guts about a couple girls at the same time. It's happened before, and, yeah, actually, as much as a dick it makes me sound like, it happens a lot.
But...for some weird and unknown reason, this time is different, and I really can't explain why I'm stressing so much when I, like, barely even know these chicks. I mean, I kissed my ex best friend in, like, 8th grade, while we were rolling freaking joints, and I didn't even think about it - not once - but now I'm practically, like, I dunno...like, upset, okay? I'm upset for a stupid reason. And I need to just calm down and get over it, because there's a hell of a lot of solutions for it like a) getting high, b) partying, c) forgetting about it, and d) seeing if I can find something on the Discovery Channel about how the brain...starts liking someone, I don't know. But, whichever way I go, I'll be doing it tonight, and at the same time, I could also come to a choice, or whatever.
If this is even a decision.
With a sigh, Jesse did one more check of his phone, silently seeing if Argus decided to reply with a rapid fire text, hopefully dropping the whole Emily topic, as it was no longer something Jesse was too willing to discuss, even in a talking-but-not-talking kind of situation. God, he scolded himself, rereading his reply. Did I suddenly become mega gay overnight?
Rolling his eyes, Jesse aggravatedly shoved his bright red mobile phone back in his baggy jean pockets, turning back around to Aria to flash her a small, friendly smile. Emily fell, but she was still pretty unresponsive, and Jesse didn't see this as such an awful time to fill Aria in - partially, of course.
"Yeah," he said, nodding and standing up a little straighter. "You definitely...you definitely missed a lot." Silence. Jesse wasn't sure what else to say. Come on. Think of something! "Oh, uh, hey! Me, Emily, Ebony, and some of my guys are having this...party thing - you probably heard Emily's announcement - and, y'know, if you wanna come...you can."
