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luvablelilmonster
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My stepmother has been married to my father for about 13 years. My stepbrother is her biological youngest, and her baby boy. He dropped out of high school, got into a fight with my dad, passed around drugs at school and (after he got out of the army, which I respect) does nothing but yell at and hit his children, disrespect and control his wife, and spend 24/7 on the computer playing his online games, but he can do no wrong in my stepmother's eyes.
On the other hand, I clean the kitchen, do anything I can to help, watch my stepbrother's kids, tell my stepmother I love her every day and try to be as good as possible but she finds anything to bitch about. She's always mad at me for one reason or another. My dad didn't notice at first, but then he fell ill with congestive heart failure and kidney failure and their marriage began to fail. Now-a-days, they're more roommates than husband and wife. But anyways, that's not the point.
For example, the router to our internet is messed up, so it drops connection at random times. One day, my stepbrother reset the router, disconnecting my stepmother from her Facebook game. The only thing she did was ask him "Hey did you disconnect me?" To which he said yes and she laughed and sighed a bit then said "okay then you coulda told me."
A couple days later (A.K.A Today) The router went down again. I didn't know she was directly connected to the router and that disconnecting it would turn her game on Facebook off, so I restarted it and went back to my computer. She comes storming in and says "I gotta restart the router" to which I honestly say "I've already done that." And she gets PISSED! She starts using her pissy voice and cursing and storming about even as I apologize repeatedly (Which my stepbrother never did). And now she refuses to look at me and it's like she want's to kill me!
I'm pretty sure she hates me because I'm not blood. I'm sick and tired of her treating me like this and I try to talk to her but every time I do she launches into this whole speech about how I'm "not the only one under stress in the house" and she makes the conversation about her! And everyone I try to talk to just goes and tells her and I get in even more trouble! This is bullshit! I'm already Manically Depressed and she piles on top of everything with her hatred for me and it makes me even more depressed and suicidal. I'd be better off not living. Maybe she'd be happy then. I cry every day because nothing I do is ever good enough for her no matter how hard I try. My biological mother abandoned me and now the closest thing I have to a mother hates me and my dad is dieing. He's all I have left. He's the only person that keeps me sane. What am I going to do when he goes? I'll have no one...
On the other hand, I clean the kitchen, do anything I can to help, watch my stepbrother's kids, tell my stepmother I love her every day and try to be as good as possible but she finds anything to bitch about. She's always mad at me for one reason or another. My dad didn't notice at first, but then he fell ill with congestive heart failure and kidney failure and their marriage began to fail. Now-a-days, they're more roommates than husband and wife. But anyways, that's not the point.
For example, the router to our internet is messed up, so it drops connection at random times. One day, my stepbrother reset the router, disconnecting my stepmother from her Facebook game. The only thing she did was ask him "Hey did you disconnect me?" To which he said yes and she laughed and sighed a bit then said "okay then you coulda told me."
A couple days later (A.K.A Today) The router went down again. I didn't know she was directly connected to the router and that disconnecting it would turn her game on Facebook off, so I restarted it and went back to my computer. She comes storming in and says "I gotta restart the router" to which I honestly say "I've already done that." And she gets PISSED! She starts using her pissy voice and cursing and storming about even as I apologize repeatedly (Which my stepbrother never did). And now she refuses to look at me and it's like she want's to kill me!
I'm pretty sure she hates me because I'm not blood. I'm sick and tired of her treating me like this and I try to talk to her but every time I do she launches into this whole speech about how I'm "not the only one under stress in the house" and she makes the conversation about her! And everyone I try to talk to just goes and tells her and I get in even more trouble! This is bullshit! I'm already Manically Depressed and she piles on top of everything with her hatred for me and it makes me even more depressed and suicidal. I'd be better off not living. Maybe she'd be happy then. I cry every day because nothing I do is ever good enough for her no matter how hard I try. My biological mother abandoned me and now the closest thing I have to a mother hates me and my dad is dieing. He's all I have left. He's the only person that keeps me sane. What am I going to do when he goes? I'll have no one...
