Heaven's Nova

"It's okay," she said softly as she held her hands beind her back, watching him. Almeria was a triffle confused. She didn't mind just now, after all it was sorta nice, but it still confused her. She knew she didn't want to offend him though and had the feeling that he was flustered. At least she thought that was what was going on. Almeria was sure she didn't want him to keep his distance. Maybe he was just tired? Or hungry, she was very hungry herself by now.

Unsure what to say or do she went back to the original topic. "I.... You already done so much for me. Don't you deserve a good night's rest?" Almeria only wished to do the right thing, and see Tra happy. She started to walk closer to him but stopped after the first step.
 
Tra paused and unfolded the shirt he was folding. He seemed to have the idea he was folding it wrong. He tried again, offering her a smile. Apparently, he failed with the shirt a second time before setting it aside and sitting on the edge of the bed.

"How about a compromise. You take the bed the first half of the night and I'll take the floor. Then we switch out." He extended one scarred hand to her. "Is it a deal?" He sat there, waiting, giving her a mock stern look. He just couldn't resist the urge to smile at her, though, and again the scowl gave way to a smile. "It really is the least I can do." He noticed she seemed a bit uneasy, though he wasn't sure why. He didn't want her to be upset.

Almost timidly, he offered a genuine smile. It wasn't that any before it had been false, but they hadn't quite gotten past the serious eyes. Now, he gave a lopsided grin, eyes lighting up. "I promise, the bed is comfortable, the blankets warm, and I'll be right in the next room." He was teasing her, but he hoped that the slight jest would cheer her. Oh, how he wanted to see her smile again!
 
She was a little pensive, but it really only took seeing Tra smile, really smile, for her to relax and smile back. Everything was okay, but..."you're really being impossible, but if it means that much to you I'll sleep in your bed."

Almeria half turned at that point intending to curl up on a couch then paused, that didn't sound quite right! It was all in her head, she knew it, but still why was her mind going there. Just because last night, having his arms around her made her feel so secure, so safe, so....

"um, what were we doing about food again? I'm actually a bit hungry and...." Almeria glanced at him. Yeah, it was all in her head, but he wasn't making it easy for her. He was just too kind, attentive, sweet, gentle and in such a handsome form!
 
Tra stood suddenly, taking her hands in his. "I almost forgot to feed you! I'm so sorry, Almeria!" Laughing, he let go of one hand, only to stride across the room, pulling her along with the other hand and out into the living area. "I don't really have anything to make, but perhaps, ah! Perhaps, if you don't mind standing in line, we can find someplace to eat. Ooor we can order food." He turned to wink at her, still pulling her along happily.

It was her smile. It made him want to lift her up and spin her, to hold her, to- Tra paused in his steps, the stop abrupt. Why, he was acting like a lovesick teen, not a grown man! He'd just apologized to her, too, and now this. She'd been through so much. He couldn't do this to her. It had been years since he'd felt this way, since anyone had stirred his mind and passions in such a way. And now that the irreverent thought, the desire to kiss her had been admitted to himself, he couldn't put it out of his mind. He tried to tell himself that it was stress, that they barely knew one another and that he should stay calm. For now, those thoughts seemed to work.
 
"I wouldn't mind staying in to eat, for today at least," she told him with a small giggle caused by the wink. He made her feel so light, the concerns that were ever present were pushed aside. After all she didn't need to dwell on such things constantly and he made for a refreshing distraction from all of it. Admittedly it was a bit silly of her to want to have dinner alone with him. She could justify it many ways, but they were only excuses. In the end she knew this was all going to be short lived.

Almeria wasn't sure why he paused, but she gave him a squeeze of the hand and then slipped her hand out of his, then walked ahead of him, backwards. "I'll trust you. Go ahead and order anything you want." She told him with a big grin and leaned on the couch. One of her hands absently found their way to her pendant and she cluched it absently. Should she be perusing a false happiness, even if it was just as simple as dinner? But having dinner with Tra would be nice. That wasn't false!
 
So he ordered dinner, and it was delivered shortly. He took out a spare blanket and unfolded it on the floor and set out a picnic of savory foods and sweet deserts, pouring them each a small glass of exotic fruit juices. He ate in silence for a time, giving her a chance to make up for missed meals. He knew he'd need sleep soon, but he wanted to savor this moment, to revel in it.

He did his best to keep from imposing on her space, but tired hands occasionally brushed against hers if they went for the same morsel, and being tired wasn't making it easy to resist the grin that now seemed to leap to his face whenever she looked at him. He knew he should be focused, he knew there was important work to do. He needed to sleep and pray and cleanse himself. Somewhere, his words from the day before, lessons warning of the dangers of denial, rose up to taunt him. Well, this time it was worth it. Besides, it wasn't his choice alone. But shouldn't she know your wishes, so she can make a choice on her own? whispered some irreverent part of his mind. He was so lost in his thoughts that he managed to tip the carafe of juice over, spilling it across the blanket.
 
"Oh!" Almeria jumped up, a bit too late for her pants. She had been enjoying her meal with Tra. It was a quiet affair but considering how heavy their conversation had been on the ship this morning, it was welcomed. He seemed happy and she was happy too.

But now she was hastily trying to help him clean up the spill, salvaging their food and make sure that the liquid didn't make it to the floor too. By the time she really looked at her pants again she knew there was no way she could just blob it with a napkin, she did try, but she could actually feel the sticky liquid on her thigh. Finally she shrugged in defeat. "I think I'm going to have to take my bath early," she was partly amused but partly annoyed. Not with Tra spilling the juice, accidents happened, but that there dinner was cut into.

"Maybe after..." They could do what exactly? She wanted to spend more time with him, but would he even be awake in another hour? "Anyways, I'm gonna go clean up." She started heading to his room, still trying to blob at the stain, then she turned back and smiled. "I really enjoyed dinner, thank you."
 
He reached up, trying to catch her hand, to hold her there just a moment longer. His eyes met hers for just a second and it was enough to send another jolt of emotion through him. He didn't seem to realize he had gotten up on his knees and was leaning up to smile at her. He had a moment of shock to find himself on his feet, to realize he was now smiling down at her. His expression faltered for an instant.

"Almeria..." He sighed and shook his head, releasing his hold on her with a great deal of effort. "Enjoy your bath. I'll finish cleaning out here." He turned away from her, beginning to clean the mess up, trying to preserve what food hadn't been ruined. He paused in moving things around to clean beneath them to stare at his hands without really seeing them, deep in thought. They were going to walk into danger and regret was something that would do neither of them any good. But what would he regret more? Admitting his attraction or possibly being separated without having a chance? This is insane! You are stronger than this. Focus!
 
'That was not in my head.'

Almeria turned on the water in the tub and started undressing, thinking about dinner, and subsequently the last few days with Tra. He had been very focused on her, there was little doubt about it now.

Turning off the water, the curly haired woman tested with a toe first before stepping into the bath. The warm water felt so good. It easier away the tension in her neck and shoulders and back. Tension she'd been ignoring.

'But maybe he hasn't?'

The more she thought about, the more it made sense he was trying to keep her spirits up, watching for any serious signs of depression. She had plenty to be depressed about after all. Not only with just about everyone she knew dead, but it was her fault too! Logically she knew it was Namir's fault, but he killed them all because of her!

What she wouldn't trade to have this all be some fever dream!

Almeria dunked her head in the water, holding her breath for as long as she could before surfacing again. She took several deep breaths, then did it a second time. Afterwards she looked around the bathtub for some soap. She scrubbed and as she did she silently declared to herself that she wouldn't let their deaths be completely a waste. She would behead the snake in their memory and for the refuges she saw today.

She couldn't do it alone though, and for a moment that thought engulfed in in despair. Then she recalled Tra's words. They were not just pretty words to make her feel better. She could tell he meant them, he would help her, his heart was in it.

Almeria smiled to herself. Was it any wonder she latched on to him? He was light a small bright light of hope when she was drowning in the darkness of loss and doubt. Thinking about it that way made her feel a bit less crazy.

The smile did not last long, she tripped the drain and watched the water level drop. As the last remains swirled around the drain she sighed. She didn't know where to start, there was so much to do, and now that she was with these pirates, who's help she truly needed, she had to see what they were willing to do. She didn't even know where to start.

Drying herself, and putting on the oversized shirt once more she somberly exited the bathroom.
 
Tra waited til she was out of the room. He quickly finished cleaning before slipping into the shrine alcove. Incense and candles were lit and he sank down to his knees. The next several minutes were spent centering himself. She was a wonder, to be sure, but she wasn't his. He had no right to distract her from their quest.

Eventually, calm seeped in, then swept over the priest. He let out a relaxing sigh, feeling himself center and his sense of purpose return. He had things to do. He couldn't be shaken. He let his mind drift for a time, seeing thoughts come into focus and fade out just as quickly. They washed over him like the tide, tugging at him or buffeting him on occasion, but never for more than a short time before they slipped away. Eventually, one thought stood out, clear.

Namir.

The High Overcleric stood in a courtyard. White blossoms adorned fruit trees, and fountains trickled nearby, accompanied by the sound of string instruments playing meditative music. Tra reminded himself to take nothing he saw literally. Visions were often more symbolic than realistic, after all. Tra seemed to be watching from behind the weeping branches of one of the trees. He could make out Namir, but there was someone else there. He could not tell who. There were voices, but he couldn't make out most of the words. Only a few trickled through. Traitor. Savoir. Deceiver. Miracle.

The blossoms were blue. Why had he ever thought them white? It seemed perfectly right for them to be red. Yes, of course. They had never been anything other than golden. He found himself stepping into the courtyard, drawing a blade. It shimmered with the darkness of night, the kind of darkness that hurts the eyes to look at too long, that one must turn away from or their eyes would make up their own colors to fill the void. Tra's footsteps stopped abruptly. Almeria stood there, her hands resting on the High Overcleric's arm. She was smiling up at him. She turned to Tra, tried to run to him, only to stumble, a rope of fire tying her wrists to Namir's arm. Namir smiled, raising a blade of his own. This one was just as black, but held within it thousands of points of light. Stars! He raised it, pointing it at Tra. Writhing energy leapt out, striking the priest, throwing him from his feet. All he could see was sky and blossoms rushing past, each petal black and full of blossoming novas and softly swirling nebulas. Each one was a brilliant red, and they slid together and dripped from the petals, his own blood raining down to scatter on the courtyard stones, moving to him to pool beneath him.

He fell back, gasping for air. The priest was drenched in a cold sweat, eyes dilated. He took a few moments to try and center again, finally extinguishing the candles and grinding out the incense. What had THAT been? Now that it was over, he remembered pain and the feeling of all warmth leaving his body. Or maybe it was just that he was sweat drenched and freezing. He stepped out of the alcove, tugging off the damp shirt he wore. He'd have to write all this down before he forgot!
 
Almeria paused while still in Tra's room. She wanted to not concern the priest. Yes, her thoughts where somber, but she didn't want him having to jump through hoops to see to it that she was okay. Going over to the bed she laid down, her head on the edge of a pillow and looked at the wall. Maybe if she could figure out what to do in the short term she'd feel less overwhelmed.

It was getting late in the day, and there wasn't anything that was going to get accomplished this evening. Praying might help. She usually felt calmer when she prayed, and maybe sang. She tended to avoid hymns around others, but sometimes an outward expression was good for the soul. She didn't feel the need to demonstrate to others her devotion.

Closing her eyes she tried to imagine what the next day would be like. Would she meet other people from Tra's ship? How soon could she really start changing things? She had an idea of wanting to start at the beginning, to be sure her hypothesis was correct about the Prophet, the Cult & the Overcleric. After all if she was wrong, then she might make a big mistake unknowingly. But if she was correct... Then.... Then....

Almeria had not meant to fall asleep, but the bath had relaxed her body and her spirit was still weary, her mind though was still not so kind to her.
 
Tra frowned as he wrote down every detail he could remember. Most of his logs were kept on his handcomp, but any tiny sliver of image that lingered in mediation was recorded in a real journal, leather bound. Granted, he'd never experienced something quite so intense. Writing about it brought it back vividly, and he wrote it down three times, allowing for any variations that might have flickered in from the edges. He was exhausted and needed sleep, but first, he needed to write out possible meanings for the vision.

He worked for over an hour, writing down every possible spiritual, color, and mathematical meaning he could think of. The swords troubled him. His was so.. so empty, while Namir's teemed with existence. It was as though Tra wielded the universe burnt, nothing left. The thought scared him, chilling him deeply. He needed another shirt, but he didn't wish to disturb Almeria. Instead, he wrapped a throw from the couch around his shoulders and continued to write.

Words started to blur together and Tra began to yawn. Eventually, he slumped atop the journal, the word "paradise" half finished on the page he had been working on. Shivering, he fell asleep.
 
The smoke was everywhere and Almeria found it harder and harder to breath. The only distraction from the smoke was the flames as they crawled closer and closer to her, the heat becoming unbearable. She coughed, her lungs where filled with smoke and she couldn't breath, she gasped for air and then...

THUD

Almeria looked at the ceiling in a daze, sle looked to her left at the wall, and then the right at the bed. She'd tossed herself right onto the floor. "Ouch," she muttered to herself as she sat up. That had not been a pleasant dream. In fact she hadn't had a fire dream in years. She had thought she outgrew those particular nightmares finally.

Standing up she made her way to the door, still groggy from the dream she was jolted out of. She needed some water, she felt like there was still smoke in her lungs, even if it was imaginary.

As she walked into the living room she paused. There was the priest, passed out it seemed while doing some sort of studying, with a blanket over his shoulders. This wasn't good. He'd have a kink in his neck come morning. She smiled and shook her head then walked over to him shaking his shoulder lightly. He seemed to have lost his shirt, how odd! "Come on Tra, time to go to bed," she said lightly. If she could she'd take him half asleep and lead him to his room. That way there was no arguing or excuses, just him getting some sleep.
 
Tra blinked blearily. Why was his shoulder shaking? He smiled his gentle smile upon seeing Almeria. "You should be in bed," he murmured, but allowed himself to be led. He was, indeed, far too tired to argue. He allowed himself to actually lean on her, if only because his foot had gone to sleep where he was sitting and he didn't want to twist it oddly.

He sat on the edge of the bed, kicking his boots off before flopping back on the mattress, his legs hanging off the side, toes brushing the floor. It was clear he was exhausted and probably wouldn't move til morning without help. He tried to drag a blanket over him, becoming slightly confused and managing to cover his upper right arm with the corner before drifting back to sleep. "So glad..." he muttered as he dozed off. "So glad you got free of the fire, Almeria." His sleep addled brain could not quite separate the Almeria of his vision from the one helping him to bed.
 
Almeria got his legs up onto the bed, and was in the process of taking care of the blankets for him too when he spoke. For a long moment she just stared at the man. She couldn't fathom how he could have known her dream! Eventually she got out of her shock enough to get some blankets over him. He was going to need them since he had no shirt. She'd hate for him to catch a chill.

She stared at him for a while longer before admitting to herself she wasn't getting any answers from looking at the sleeping man. Moving his boots to the wall she walked out of his room, still a bit unnerved. Sitting where she found Tra on the couch, she looked down at the open page. She didn't even realive what it was until she read half the page. Feeling guilty for looking into his personal thoughts she reached over to close it when she caught her name. Blinking she picked up the journal and continued reading. She felt so sad, but she had to know more now. She flipped back several pages until she found the beginning of the entry, reading every detail.

Gently she shut the book and put it on the table, thinking about what he'd wrote. Symbolism was a tricky thing. Almeria decided to not try to deciefer the meanings, nor even Tra's interpretations. She recalled the words in her mind of what he wrote he saw and felt in the vision. That was the important thing right now. She was sleepy, but her mind was going full tilt.

Feeling your own death was not pleasant. She just wanted to give him a hug now, but he was asleep.

"That just means I need to make sure not to wake him."

With those thoughts she quietly went back into Tra's room. He had not moved from where she left him. Almeria smiled, hopefully he at least had pleasant dreams. She then carefully crawled into bed and put an arm around him.
 
Tra was sound asleep. It would have been hard for her to wake him if she had tried. His own dreams were soft, ethereal things that made no sense to him. He slept til it was nearly morning. The room's Environmental Replication Lighting was starting to glow, to give the illusion of waking to a natural sunrise. Tra stirred, blinking and reaching a hand up to rub the sleep from his eyes. It was then that he realized he wasn't alone. He blinked, looking at Almeria, trying to recall the night before. Why was she there? Where was his shirt? In the soft light, she looked so fragile. He knew otherwise. A Knight was strong, not some delicate rose.

Sighing, finally confident that nothing untoward had happened, he reached out and brushed some hair out of her face. He snuggled close to her, trying to do so without waking her. She must have had another nightmare or memory and needed comfort, he thought. This was becoming a recurring event. He didn't really mind, though, perfectly happy in the moment to just be there for her. Finally, he sighed, trailing his fingers along her cheek. "Almeria? It's morning. We have a few things to take care of today." His words were barely a whisper.
 
[FONT=Tahoma, Calibri, Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif]"Mm?" Almeria's eyes blinked open, but she did not stir right away as consciousness took its time to reach her. Turning her head a bit she looked up into Tra's eyes and gave him a sleepy smile. "Sleep good?" she asked in a groggy voice.

It seemed like for a moment she had no intention of moving off of him, but she finally moved her arm and stretched out, yawning. Blinking a few more times she sat up. She looked very content, though maybe not exactly a morning person with the way she sleepily looked at Tra. Almeria felt much more rested then early that evening when she awoke from the nightmare. In fact it wasn't even on her mind at the moment. All she was really thinking about was that it was ashame it was time to get up. Almeria was not a lazy person, but since she never really got much of a chance to doodle in the morning, of her own doing, she always felt wishful that she could.

Placing her head in her upbent knees she smiled at Tra. "What is on the agenda today?"[/FONT]
 
He watched her for a moment, chuckling softly. This was nice, far too nice. It made everything else seem unreal, far away. He felt safe here, removed from the terrible vision of the night before. Tra draped an arm around her, pulling her close in a gentle hug before releasing her and going to stand up. The lights were on fully now, and Tra's sleep mussed hair hung down his bare back as he stood.

"Well, first off, we should get some breakfast. And I need a shower. The leftovers from last night are in the fridge if you want to help yourself." He turned and smiled at her, that relaxed lopsided grin. "After that, I need to take you to see a friend of mine. She's a doctor and will give you a check up and get your medical records ready so you can come back on the ship." He kept his back to her, starting to dig clothes out of a closet. "Actually, if you want a few more minutes of sleep, you can sleep while I get my shower."
 
Almeria smiled happily. He had slept well. Considering the vision he had last night coupled with the stress of the last few days, well, deserved a good nights rest. He certainly looked rested and relaxed. Almeria wasn't sure if she could take credit for much of that other then getting him to bed, but she didn't care too much about that.

So they wanted a medical work up on her? It made sense, though she didn't think it would be very much fun. Especially if there were endurance tests. She had been neglecting her workout the last several weeks. There had been so much going on with her studies, and her application to go on a study trip to Aumlar, supposively for her paper on the Prophet Herma. Though none of that really mattered much.

"Mm, tempting," she replied then gave a big yawn. "No, I'm awake, might as well finish the process. That way you have warm food when you're done with your shower." After all he'd taken care of her, it was time she tried to return the kindness where she could, for however long she could. She sleepily waved him off to the bathroom and made her way to the kitchen.
 
Tra nodded, going to get his shower. He hurried through it, but afterwards, dressed and cleaned, he lingered. His gaze settled on the mirror, staring at his own reflection. Lifting a hand, he wiped away the condensation that had formed.

Death in a vision could mean so many things. Change, trial, even blessing, but this felt far too real. Though he tried to relegate it to the realm of allegory, the feeling of pain was fresh in his mind once again, and he could feel his life force fading away. Of course, if could simply mean defeat. Even if that defeat didn't hold death, it was a possibility. And yet, he'd sworn his life to Almeria. He couldn't imagine that he would allow himself an ultimate failure without giving his life in the process.

He shook his head, walking out of the bathroom and bedroom to the living area. He no longer looked the picture of peace he had before going to shower.