I should be: I should be crying, I should be screaming. Oh, my God, why am I Wishing I stopped breathing? My very existence aches, My immortal soul shakes. Oh, my God, why am I Trembling like the earth quakes? My eyes have sen so much, My heart needing to clutch. Oh, my God,why do I Need another's love so much? All I can ask you, Is that you see me through... Oh, my God, please... The happy face you see: My heart is breakin' My soul is shaken Sanity has been taken Love now forsaken All I can do is hide My time I just bide I need a trusting guide Before all has died Lord all I ask Is to shatter my mask And take away my flask Is it such a difficult task? If you can't, let me die For all these days I cry I think I'd rather fry Instead of crying why Lord you must not know How far I'll go To let blood flow Ending what I hate so I know you wouldn't Make me do as I couldn't Leaving me what I shouldn't I know you wouldn't So tell me how I can live as a cow By the sweat of brow No life in now Lord grant me grace To keep the pace To finish the race And leave this place Change my fate End my hate It has grown late And I cannot wait Don't allow me to run To the barrel of a gun Give me the sun Grant me some fun Lord give me relief Albeit too brief A moment lacking grief Strengthen my belief Send me a sign Stop this pulling tine I won't be fine With a mind like mine The happy face you see is by no means me This is all I can be With a mind like the sea You who are reading this You may see me in bliss Every smirk is death's kiss This is what you miss -- The strong man you see.