Hailfire's colourful mind

Discussion in 'SHOWCASING' started by Mako Torriblaidd, Feb 7, 2012.

  1. I should be:
    I should be crying,

    I should be screaming.
    Oh, my God, why am I
    Wishing I stopped breathing?
    My very existence aches,
    My immortal soul shakes.
    Oh, my God, why am I
    Trembling like the earth quakes?
    My eyes have sen so much,
    My heart needing to clutch.
    Oh, my God,why do I
    Need another's love so much?
    All I can ask you,
    Is that you see me through...
    Oh, my God, please...

    The happy face you see:
    My heart is breakin'
    My soul is shaken
    Sanity has been taken
    Love now forsaken

    All I can do is hide
    My time I just bide
    I need a trusting guide
    Before all has died

    Lord all I ask
    Is to shatter my mask
    And take away my flask
    Is it such a difficult task?

    If you can't, let me die
    For all these days I cry
    I think I'd rather fry
    Instead of crying why

    Lord you must not know
    How far I'll go
    To let blood flow
    Ending what I hate so

    I know you wouldn't
    Make me do as I couldn't
    Leaving me what I shouldn't
    I know you wouldn't

    So tell me how
    I can live as a cow
    By the sweat of brow
    No life in now

    Lord grant me grace
    To keep the pace
    To finish the race
    And leave this place

    Change my fate
    End my hate
    It has grown late
    And I cannot wait

    Don't allow me to run
    To the barrel of a gun
    Give me the sun
    Grant me some fun

    Lord give me relief
    Albeit too brief
    A moment lacking grief
    Strengthen my belief

    Send me a sign
    Stop this pulling tine
    I won't be fine
    With a mind like mine

    The happy face you see
    is by no means me
    This is all I can be
    With a mind like the sea

    You who are reading this
    You may see me in bliss
    Every smirk is death's kiss
    This is what you miss
    The strong man you see.

  2. The gates
    My body dies in the day,

    My mind lives in the night,
    The world I know is gridlocked in plight.
    The scars that mark and destroy,
    Are one of the few methods of keeping me well.
    Oh Lord, it has been so long since I fell!
    I want to wake up!
    I want to be away from this walking nightmare.
    To explain it all and leave my mind bare,
    Every time I open myself up,
    Evil takes deeper hold,
    Such daemons tend to be very bold.
    Suffocation has been my constant retreat;
    Not the deadly kind,
    No, this is the type that numbs the mind.
    Removal of the self from the normal system,
    Reliance upon the personal self.
    Placing my sanity away on a shelf.
    Pulling myself along,
    Attempting every moment to find a place I belong.
    Alas I just watch and wait,
    Praying for a moment’s more peace before the enemy reaches the gate.
  3. If I could rip this heart out
    If I could stop the ache
    To stop this self-doubt
    To not have to be a fake
    Instead I put on a smile
    Just for a little while
    Though all of it eventually will crumble
    Turning into chunks of stone
    Causing me to trip and stumble
    Breaking my each and every bone
    There was a time
    Long, long ago
    When I was just perfectly fine
    When I had a grip on my ego
    But now I just fight
    For a small moment of peace
    Every single damned night
    Praying for the pain to cease