The factory is a womb, and I just one ovum among many. We are one, my sisters and I. All in the same length of material, not so much side by side as tangled within each other.
snick
my mother is the die-cutter. With a twist of her metal-bladed hands I am freed from my sisters, solo for the first time, going down the line at an unstoppable pace behind thousands of my kin.
thwip
my father is the sewing machine
thwip
he pokes me, pierces me
thwip
he makes me whole
thwip
his touch is cold like death, but brings to me more life
thwip
I am whole, made of my father and my mother, identical to my sisters around me, yet unique. I have a soul.
thrum
there is a conveyor belt
thrum
it plays the role of midwife
thrum
I do not wish to go
thrum
I do not wish to leave
thrum
the world beyond my womb is frightening
thrum
I am born into a box, into an egg, waiting to hatch, waiting to fledge.
Here in this box, I am whole.
Eyeless, I cannot see.
Earless, I cannot hear.
Noseless, I cannot smell.
I am tongued, but I cannot taste.
I have no heart, but I have a mind.
I have no mouth but I must speak.
My birth certificate is a receipt
whirr, the machine says
welcome to life
Later that same day I fell in love with the majesty of motion.
I can fly, but only for a few footlengths at a time.
I am a shield, a protector, a supporter, a loyal confidant
I am invaluable
The foot is my purpose, my god
who would have known so many things existed, were it not for feet?
They take me, they take us, everywhere.
The cool whispers of freshly mowed grass
The slap of running on pavement
The creak of old wood floors
The stickiness of spilled soda on restaurant floors
The foot is my god, and my god plays Eros
he jokes about golden arrows as he summons a sock
and thrusts it into me, rudely sometimes,
sometimes gently.
I am the lover of a dozen, a hundred, a thousand socks
I love them all, even though they care not for me.
I love the foot, but the foot had gotten big
I was filled, now I am stretched
I had never realized my god was so young
I had never heard of growth
The socks, they know
they have seen others like me come and go.
They do not love me because they know my time is short
they are my lovers, but I love them not
because they have told me an awful lie.
Feet, they say, are everywhere.
My foot is not unique.
My foot is not special.
My foot is just one foot on just one boy, just one of many billion.
I do not know most of those words
I do not understand most of those concepts
but i know them to be lies.
My foot is my god
Of course my foot is unique
Of course my foot is best.
I am in a box
Not a womb, but a coffin
my god had abandoned me and buried me.
I have no tears but I must cry.
My box is open
I am beside others like me
but unlike me
It is a store, they say
a store for the nonreligious
looking for a new deity
to take them home
My old lovers never lied
and now I wish I had loved them
for my world is complete
with a new foot, a new god,
better than before
for he is done with that terrible thing
sometimes called growing
and I am my foot's
and he is mine
Through parks and stores and offices
Through gravel, dirt, and mud
Through rain and snow and sand
Until I am an old soul
and an old sole
and ready to say goodbye
to the worship of feet
and ascend to the heavens
in the trash can
in the dumpster
in the truck
in a hole
in the ground
where I may sleep.