Or deal with those around you suffering from it. Right now, reading a convo about it and a comment was made about it in regards to not being alone in dealing with depression and your situation will change (summarized version). I personally have been struggling with depression for many years, possibly since elementary school. I was known as the girl who hardly smiled and just very uncomfortable with making friends. When my father and his family left me, it probably got worse. I started smiling I'm middle school, made a few friends and yes, it did hurt to smile for a while. The muscles in my face hurt really bad but eventually, it went away. My depression came and went, I'm mostly a home body and I have trouble having conversations with people that don't revolve around gossip or things I consider boring and it's literally made me very closed off. I barely talk to my friends now and I don't like going outside when it's warm. There have been times when it's so severe that I don't want to exist anymore and I cry til my eyes burn asking God why? A friend of mines committed suicide a year after high school. No one knew he was depressed. He was very well liked and we all considered him a friend. It was very hard being at his wake, to see his mother looking so defeated but it's a memory that I have kept with me, 8 years later as to why I have to stay. There are so many different levels of depression to were oh I was dumped, let me watch sad movies and eat ice cream for a week and I'm okay to where there is something inside of us that no matter what we do, we feel like we're being eaten alive and it can last for months. So...how do you deal with it? I go through a long period of solitude. Watching a lot of movies/shows/youtube or listening to music. I've started knitting which is pretty good at keeping my anxiety down or I hang out in cbox for a while until I get overwhelmed lol. I do look for ways to keep busy. I love to work and hate long vacations.