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♣CrimsonParadiso♣
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There are things that happen in life that can change it forever, whether it's in the long run or not. Big events that take place, people walking in and out of your life, graduation, a new sibling, a dog, a new school...
But those are only the good things.
The things that impact you the most are usually the things that leave you broken, lost and crying out for someone to hold you. People dying, parents separating, friends moving away, sickness, depression, falling... hurting...
Life isn't life without change.
Because that would be a dream world.
I learned this the hard way.
My name is Travis.
They say that change is good, but I can't bring myself to agree with them, whoever 'they' are. To me, change can be for better, or for worse. And from what I've experienced, it does more bad than good, you know that.
I said it before and I'll say it again:
Life isn't life without change.
It's been close to ten years since I've last seen you. No one ever asks about you, and I never talk about you. It works that way. Because now, I don't have to live in the past. I don't have to tell anyone what I've been through. I don't have to sit there and watch as it all sinks in, eyes widen, mouths covered and disgust evident on their features.
But I don't want to lose the only family I have.
My friends, they only see me in one way. Never, have they seen me cry, never have they seen me break down, never have they even thought for one second that I'm not just the laid back character they see every day. Also my life is not the one that everyone wants to live, that it's not perfect, like everyone thinks it is.
It's because of you that I am this way.
You used to be so caring, so strong; no one would've seen it coming. No one would guess that you, of all people would do this. Even I, your kin, couldn't figure out why you would do this to me.
And that's why no one would believe me...until it was too late, and the proof was thrown in their faces. Their eyes were wide, mouths covered, disgust evident on their features as they looked at me.
All because of you.
But now I have a new life, with friends that I call family. You're gone, I'm free. And I've done the very thing that you said I could never do. I've made a name of myself. Everyone around the world knows of Travis Arvad.
And I don't ever have to go back.
Or so I thought.
Who would've guessed, that you would come for me?
You said you hated me. That I was unfit for the family name. That I brought shame on you. That no one would ever look at me without turning away.
Then why come back?
Why? When it was you who caused all of this?
When it was you who threw me away?
Now, because of you, my new life has fallen to pieces around me. All that's left is faded memories.
Because change has finally come knocking on my door.
Travis lay on his bed staring at the wall, he had been trying for hours to not think about what was to come by reading but he couldn't help it. Everyone was out on a date, work or just passed out so he had nothing better to do but think. And right now thinking wasn't doing him any good since he had received a very unwanted piece of mail.
He looked down at the black kitten that lay at his side, his little Lolita, his shadow that always followed him about his apartment. Travis had never really liked cats, he was more of a dog person though that was until he found this little black fur ball abandoned and beaten in an alleyway and it reminded him so much of himself and couldn't help but bring the little one home.
Another part about being alone right now was that the weekend had just started and there was nothing to do. He had the weekend off of work and he wasn't in school at the moment. It was summer vacation and a lot his friends had gone away to Florida or home to see family. Travis sighed heavily and picked his book up again, trying to get himself to focus on something else besides his impending encounter with his only family member left.