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Hey faggot, It's future you. You always call your porn folder 'Game Time'. How do I know that? Because I'm you. Now that's out the way listen up. The whole physical therapy career isn't going to work out so start drawing or painting because you get really into art when your 21. Don't join the military. Sometimes it's cool but most of the time you hate it and it really doesn't cover as much of your tuition as you'd think it would. I'm going to attach a few art books and shit you need to read to save yourself a shit-ton of crappy drawings. Also, stop pretending to be interested in Mormonism to get with the Mormon girls. Seriously that is only going to lead to all kinds of awkward places. Also, go outside more and work for a more active social life. Not that I do that now either but one of us needs to start. Don't worry about not knowing what you want to be when you grow up. Future you still doesn't know and can tell you that worrying about it is pointless. Just do what you enjoy. Mom and Sid will calm down once you leave home too. Finally you break your leg your junior year in a football game so have fun with that. Finally your not in love with whoever you think right now so calm down.
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Y'know, despite some choices I should regret and having gone through my share of confusing times, I think I'll pass.
These ultimately made me who I am today and I'm pretty good with that person. Sure there's always room for learning and improvement, but I like me. Through a series of standing up after falling down, I've gained strength and understanding I wouldn't have gotten just by ear. If I took those experiences away from myself, just building on the wisdom of others without discovering it for myself, would have left me a completely different person. One I don't know or am sure I would like to know.
Also who am I kidding, me from 10 years ago wouldn't have listened anyway.
These ultimately made me who I am today and I'm pretty good with that person. Sure there's always room for learning and improvement, but I like me. Through a series of standing up after falling down, I've gained strength and understanding I wouldn't have gotten just by ear. If I took those experiences away from myself, just building on the wisdom of others without discovering it for myself, would have left me a completely different person. One I don't know or am sure I would like to know.
Also who am I kidding, me from 10 years ago wouldn't have listened anyway.
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Dear lil' baby Kaylee,
YOUR HAIR WON'T STAY RED FOREVER.
ALSO YOUR MAKEUP SKILLS WERE HORRIBLE AND CRINGE-WORTHY.
YOUR HAIR WON'T STAY RED FOREVER.
ALSO YOUR MAKEUP SKILLS WERE HORRIBLE AND CRINGE-WORTHY.
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Dear Sperm K+,
Try moving a little bit slowly. Let someone else win the race. OR corrode the living hell out of that egg. That's the only way you're not going to be disappointed with with your future.
Dear Lil' K+,
Keep getting good grades, tell people no more and actually mean it.
You
Dear Rui,
Fuck you, you little shit dog, you shouldn't have ever existed. Mature a little, goddamn, stop fibbing to yourself about suicide, you love yourself too much for that shit and are afraid of doing so thanks to Hell afterlife propaganda and pain.
And never work on that Oronia thing, you'll probably end up writing it your entire life.
Man up,
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AT LUNCHTIME YOU WILL ACTUALLY BUY FOOD, TRY NOT TO DROP IT.
AND MAKE UP YOU DAMN MIND ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.
IT'S STRESSING OUT MORROW K+
Love,
Try moving a little bit slowly. Let someone else win the race. OR corrode the living hell out of that egg. That's the only way you're not going to be disappointed with with your future.
Dear Lil' K+,
Keep getting good grades, tell people no more and actually mean it.
You
Dear Rui,
Fuck you, you little shit dog, you shouldn't have ever existed. Mature a little, goddamn, stop fibbing to yourself about suicide, you love yourself too much for that shit and are afraid of doing so thanks to Hell afterlife propaganda and pain.
Man up,
Tenacious K
Dear YeSterK+
AT LUNCHTIME YOU WILL ACTUALLY BUY FOOD, TRY NOT TO DROP IT.
AND MAKE UP YOU DAMN MIND ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.
IT'S STRESSING OUT MORROW K+
Love,
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Get a backbone. They're just kids too.
Also, work out harder you dumbass, I want abs.
Also, work out harder you dumbass, I want abs.
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Thank you all for your sincere input and effort to contribute to this. I used the responses here as sample to present to my Japanese students here trying to learn and improve their English skills, and it was a very successful exercise.
I didn't take notes or record, but I had some very moving responses. Some of them are summarized as follows:
- Two months ago, don't go surfing at Kamakura. You'll suffer a very bad accident and lose your left eye.
- High school years, don't go partying and shopping and drinking too much, you'll regret it later in life.
- One year ago, stop drinking so much.... because you'll suffer from gout and be unable to enjoy it now.
- Just before starting work, after college: you should take the opportunity to travel and see the world while you have the time, because you'll be too busy with work and family once you start your real life.
- Five years ago, gather some canned food and water, because a very bad earthquake will occur next month and you will have a very difficult time finding those things for several days.
- Ten years ago, don't marry the guy you're dating now, because he will show that he isn't worth it.
Again, thank you all for your contribution(s) both on this site and to my Japan English class!
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They seemed to like the way one of the letters started, so everyone used: "Dear me of XXX years/months ago"
I didn't take notes or record, but I had some very moving responses. Some of them are summarized as follows:
- Two months ago, don't go surfing at Kamakura. You'll suffer a very bad accident and lose your left eye.
- High school years, don't go partying and shopping and drinking too much, you'll regret it later in life.
- One year ago, stop drinking so much.... because you'll suffer from gout and be unable to enjoy it now.
- Just before starting work, after college: you should take the opportunity to travel and see the world while you have the time, because you'll be too busy with work and family once you start your real life.
- Five years ago, gather some canned food and water, because a very bad earthquake will occur next month and you will have a very difficult time finding those things for several days.
- Ten years ago, don't marry the guy you're dating now, because he will show that he isn't worth it.
Again, thank you all for your contribution(s) both on this site and to my Japan English class!
P.S.
They seemed to like the way one of the letters started, so everyone used: "Dear me of XXX years/months ago"
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Dear little Wina Wat,
Don't mind the snooty bitches that keep picking on you. In a few years you'll have a pretty good reason to feel smug whenever you see them. I won't tell you things will be easy, but they won't kill you the way you keep thinking. Give up trying to have a relationship with mom, because it's NEVER going to happen, accept it and move on. Oh yeah, and harden your heart up a bit, because you're going to let it get broken far too many times than should be considered healthy.
Stop partying so damn much your senior year. Just because you have freedom, doesn't mean you should take complete advantage of it. Do your damn homework and stop flirting with the boy in English class, because he's not what you'll want in the future.
And yes, our nickname will stay Wina Wat long into the future. Deal with it.
Sincerely,
A much older and somewhat wiser Wina Wat
Don't mind the snooty bitches that keep picking on you. In a few years you'll have a pretty good reason to feel smug whenever you see them. I won't tell you things will be easy, but they won't kill you the way you keep thinking. Give up trying to have a relationship with mom, because it's NEVER going to happen, accept it and move on. Oh yeah, and harden your heart up a bit, because you're going to let it get broken far too many times than should be considered healthy.
Stop partying so damn much your senior year. Just because you have freedom, doesn't mean you should take complete advantage of it. Do your damn homework and stop flirting with the boy in English class, because he's not what you'll want in the future.
And yes, our nickname will stay Wina Wat long into the future. Deal with it.
Sincerely,
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Dear younger me,
I'm going to make this short and sweet.
Your future self.
I'm going to make this short and sweet.
- You don't always have to be right. Have some humility.
- Work harder in school. It'll make your life way easier.
- Don't be afraid to say "No means no, motherfucker."
- Pick a better major and stuck with it.
- Your life isn't that bad. Stop it with the pity party.
- Channel your inner bad bitch and do what needs to get done and stop worrying about others.
Your future self.
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Dear Young LogicfromLogic,
You'll get through treatments. I know how hard shit is for you at home. I know that you were alone, and you have tried so hard not to show how much you hurt. In the next few years, I would like to say that all of your choices were the right ones. I would like to say that after high school, moving out, and getting away from your crazy ass family was going to be healthy for you. That you'll finally find the peace that you've wanted for such a damn long time.
You'd make your grandmother proud. But in truth, none of that happened. You relapsed and got back into drugs, you got back into drinking and hung out with someone you should never have even allied yourself with. He got you into (you cannot pass off your own damn choices on others however) some very dangerous shit. And it's going to follow you for the rest of your life. I wish there was a better way to put that, but there isn't. You fucked up, and by all means I think this was the worst fuck up of your life.
But move on from it. If you do not, you'll die there. You can't help your sister anymore lad, she's got to take the reins of her own life. She's got to be responsible and strong on her own. You've done all that you can, again, if you stay where you are now where i am as an older man, you'll die there. Move on, don't stick to memory. Create new ones and don't hate. You don't ever give into hatred, it's just not in you. hatred destroys people, turns youngsters old and not in the good way. It ages you in a way that isn't reversible when it reaches a point. You are coming so dangerously close to tat that part of you is already destroyed. But try your best to repair the damage done and make a better life for yourself.
Learn to love yourself. Yes, you don't have a family. You will lose your brother in the most awful way, and I'm sorry that you are going to feel that. It's going to be hard for you, because as the years pass you are going to lose more and more people. And it's going to take it's toll on you, I'm in my mid-twenties now and I feel like I am in my late eighties. I don't mean to sound like I'm assuming things about the elderly community, but you'll get a taste of what they feel watching their loved ones pass around them.
You still have friends. Your best mate will forgive you for everything that you've done. Yes, you sir have screwed up this badly. You need to fix what you've done, own up to shit and try to be better. Don't beat yourself up and stop making excuses. And stop this death bullshit. You know why your best mate refused to give up on you? You are better than what you have become, and he knows it. He saw through the horseshit but you've got a long road ahead.
I can't tell you what to do. As I have learned, you cannot change what's meant to pass and this is something you need to learn. You are going to lose your ability to run ever again, your jaw is never going to be the same and neither will you. This will be the hardest damn thing you've ever done. You are going to lose everything; the good vision your grandmother held for you, your sister's trust, and you'll give your mother validation in her mind to treat you however she sees fit. Now I know that this sounds like a death sentence for you.
It's not youngster; it's your life telling you how much you want to live.
By losing your sister's trust, you work hard to regain it.
By losing your best mate, you gain his trust back and you become even more loyal to them than you ever were before. Never again will you pull what you did.
By letting your mother see you as however she wants to, you learn compassion for others. She'll teach you in the oddest way that you never want to turn into her. never will you want to treat someone the same way she treats you.
You've faced abuse from many places, you've gotten through some real tough shit. And as you go through life, you'll keep wading through all of that shit. I'm not going to lie to you that there are things I wish you had never done, no matter what the lesson was. Bad things happened in that place, but you'll find that out.
My best advice to you is just keep putting your foot in front of the other, even if the ground is unsteady below you. You can and will get through everything you are about to face. You'll live, and you will learn. You are loved more than you think, I know that what you've faced in your past gave you a feeling of being alone. But you aren't, and you are loved so much more than you know. Why do you think both your best friend and sister came back?
Love man, love is the strongest thing that you have to your name and always will be. yeah, you are a smart little shit but even that has it's limits lad. Intellect without compassion will destroy you and everything. It'll give you a compromise that nothing will ever fix for you. It'll create a rift in your heart and you'll eat yourself from the inside out. You'll become the very person you swore you promised you'd never become.
You aren't stupid, stop telling yourself that. You aren't slow. You are smart but in a couple year's time, you'll hear Eegie give you the best damn advice you need to hear;
'Intellect isn't everything. There are better things in life, don't centre yourself in just that place. I love you no matter who you are.'
Take that to heart, you don't have a big family like your siblings do, you are more alone than anyone you know. the youngest of your father isn't a life that i would have wished on anyone but it's your life. You've got a lot to prove yet nothing. You need to prove to yourself that you are worthy of your own god damned love. Stop this weak shit with self loathing. You aren't a quitter, you would have died a long time ago. You are so much more than your past but you are not your future yet. Give yourself some credit and through your battles, keep fighting. Yes, this sounds over dramatic but you'll find out real soon how hard life is going to get for you. It's some very scary shit, and go to rehab when you get out. I'm serious, don't fight it. You will get out and you do need help. It's okay to cry, get angry, show negative emotions. Please stop holding back and let yourself feel something besides just joy. I know that's hard for someone like you; you've been in places where joy was the only damn thing that's saved you. But sadness, anger, jealousy...every one of those...are needed. You aren't being healthy, fix what you've done, heal and move on.
You got this son.
~A much older Logic
You'll get through treatments. I know how hard shit is for you at home. I know that you were alone, and you have tried so hard not to show how much you hurt. In the next few years, I would like to say that all of your choices were the right ones. I would like to say that after high school, moving out, and getting away from your crazy ass family was going to be healthy for you. That you'll finally find the peace that you've wanted for such a damn long time.
You'd make your grandmother proud. But in truth, none of that happened. You relapsed and got back into drugs, you got back into drinking and hung out with someone you should never have even allied yourself with. He got you into (you cannot pass off your own damn choices on others however) some very dangerous shit. And it's going to follow you for the rest of your life. I wish there was a better way to put that, but there isn't. You fucked up, and by all means I think this was the worst fuck up of your life.
But move on from it. If you do not, you'll die there. You can't help your sister anymore lad, she's got to take the reins of her own life. She's got to be responsible and strong on her own. You've done all that you can, again, if you stay where you are now where i am as an older man, you'll die there. Move on, don't stick to memory. Create new ones and don't hate. You don't ever give into hatred, it's just not in you. hatred destroys people, turns youngsters old and not in the good way. It ages you in a way that isn't reversible when it reaches a point. You are coming so dangerously close to tat that part of you is already destroyed. But try your best to repair the damage done and make a better life for yourself.
Learn to love yourself. Yes, you don't have a family. You will lose your brother in the most awful way, and I'm sorry that you are going to feel that. It's going to be hard for you, because as the years pass you are going to lose more and more people. And it's going to take it's toll on you, I'm in my mid-twenties now and I feel like I am in my late eighties. I don't mean to sound like I'm assuming things about the elderly community, but you'll get a taste of what they feel watching their loved ones pass around them.
You still have friends. Your best mate will forgive you for everything that you've done. Yes, you sir have screwed up this badly. You need to fix what you've done, own up to shit and try to be better. Don't beat yourself up and stop making excuses. And stop this death bullshit. You know why your best mate refused to give up on you? You are better than what you have become, and he knows it. He saw through the horseshit but you've got a long road ahead.
I can't tell you what to do. As I have learned, you cannot change what's meant to pass and this is something you need to learn. You are going to lose your ability to run ever again, your jaw is never going to be the same and neither will you. This will be the hardest damn thing you've ever done. You are going to lose everything; the good vision your grandmother held for you, your sister's trust, and you'll give your mother validation in her mind to treat you however she sees fit. Now I know that this sounds like a death sentence for you.
It's not youngster; it's your life telling you how much you want to live.
By losing your sister's trust, you work hard to regain it.
By losing your best mate, you gain his trust back and you become even more loyal to them than you ever were before. Never again will you pull what you did.
By letting your mother see you as however she wants to, you learn compassion for others. She'll teach you in the oddest way that you never want to turn into her. never will you want to treat someone the same way she treats you.
You've faced abuse from many places, you've gotten through some real tough shit. And as you go through life, you'll keep wading through all of that shit. I'm not going to lie to you that there are things I wish you had never done, no matter what the lesson was. Bad things happened in that place, but you'll find that out.
My best advice to you is just keep putting your foot in front of the other, even if the ground is unsteady below you. You can and will get through everything you are about to face. You'll live, and you will learn. You are loved more than you think, I know that what you've faced in your past gave you a feeling of being alone. But you aren't, and you are loved so much more than you know. Why do you think both your best friend and sister came back?
Love man, love is the strongest thing that you have to your name and always will be. yeah, you are a smart little shit but even that has it's limits lad. Intellect without compassion will destroy you and everything. It'll give you a compromise that nothing will ever fix for you. It'll create a rift in your heart and you'll eat yourself from the inside out. You'll become the very person you swore you promised you'd never become.
You aren't stupid, stop telling yourself that. You aren't slow. You are smart but in a couple year's time, you'll hear Eegie give you the best damn advice you need to hear;
'Intellect isn't everything. There are better things in life, don't centre yourself in just that place. I love you no matter who you are.'
Take that to heart, you don't have a big family like your siblings do, you are more alone than anyone you know. the youngest of your father isn't a life that i would have wished on anyone but it's your life. You've got a lot to prove yet nothing. You need to prove to yourself that you are worthy of your own god damned love. Stop this weak shit with self loathing. You aren't a quitter, you would have died a long time ago. You are so much more than your past but you are not your future yet. Give yourself some credit and through your battles, keep fighting. Yes, this sounds over dramatic but you'll find out real soon how hard life is going to get for you. It's some very scary shit, and go to rehab when you get out. I'm serious, don't fight it. You will get out and you do need help. It's okay to cry, get angry, show negative emotions. Please stop holding back and let yourself feel something besides just joy. I know that's hard for someone like you; you've been in places where joy was the only damn thing that's saved you. But sadness, anger, jealousy...every one of those...are needed. You aren't being healthy, fix what you've done, heal and move on.
You got this son.
~A much older Logic
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Yo, Younger Chach,
You will always be Chacha, there's nothing you can do to change it. It will follow you forever, you have done this to yourself, get over it.
Some people will hurt you, you'll probably hurt some others, but you'll survive. You will survive and it's never as bad as it seems while you're in the thick of it.
Oh! And calm your ass down with the school stuff. You're in high school, just do high school. Save college for after high school, and then maybe you won't be burnt out by the time you're actually supposed to be doing college stuff. You won't need all those Political Science classes anyway; you're going to see that it's just not for us. Focus on the stuff that brings you happiness.
That is all.
An Older, and Wiser Chach.
You will always be Chacha, there's nothing you can do to change it. It will follow you forever, you have done this to yourself, get over it.
Some people will hurt you, you'll probably hurt some others, but you'll survive. You will survive and it's never as bad as it seems while you're in the thick of it.
Oh! And calm your ass down with the school stuff. You're in high school, just do high school. Save college for after high school, and then maybe you won't be burnt out by the time you're actually supposed to be doing college stuff. You won't need all those Political Science classes anyway; you're going to see that it's just not for us. Focus on the stuff that brings you happiness.
That is all.
An Older, and Wiser Chach.
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Dear Baby Yata,
Hi you stupid little Koreaboo piece of shit. How's your life going? Bad? Don't worry, it gets worse. But hey, at least I can tell you what is gonna happen to you in the future so that you can prepare for them...or even change them.
Yours Sincerely,
Yata from the future
Hi you stupid little Koreaboo piece of shit. How's your life going? Bad? Don't worry, it gets worse. But hey, at least I can tell you what is gonna happen to you in the future so that you can prepare for them...or even change them.
- FOCUS ON YOUR CHINESE! YOU'LL REGRET IT IF YOU DON'T
- Don't throw that table at those three idiot at the back of the class...you'll be known for all the wrong reason
- Yes you will have a love life...ish
- Yes you will grow out of your uncontrollable crush after 1.5 years...ish
- There's probably more but uhhh...I can't remember
Yours Sincerely,
Yata from the future
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I was worried that I was the only one who used that word.
*Flees so others can post their self-depreciation.*
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Dear Past Me,
You're fucking depressed, DO SOMETHING BEFORE LATE 2015. Seriously. I don't care if mom freaks out and says you're just being a lazy shit, apparently Minnesota has some thing where you can go to the doctor at age 15+ without parental consent for mental things. So do that. You will actually be able to get through high school without feeling like a total failure. Just go to the damn doctor, you'll be diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (which sounds scary, but it's not), and they'll get you on pills. Just don't go on Prozac, bad times were had with Prozac. Mom and dad will eventually come around and be supportive, but it takes a little while, so just hang in there. If you don't heed my advice, your peak will hit around November 2015, so watch out for that. It'll be hard to even function.
Don't let your friends tell you who to date. None of them will like you like that, and the ginger turns out to be an asshole anyway. Just hold out on dating until after high school. The short one stays your friend, and goes into the air force. Prom 2013 doesn't go as planned because of the little shit, but it's still fun. DO NOT GO FOR THE NECKBEARD. Your friends were right, he's now fat, stinks, and tries to woo you in front of your now boyfriend. He goes to prom with you. Yep. You'll go to prom with The Tork because he's your last chance at going with another person. Pretty sad, huh?
Things do look up, though. Senior year is pretty great. Don't bother with Yearbook, it's a waste of time. Don't even bother with Knowledge Bowl, honestly. No EC activities for you. Do your homework. Take College Algebra in high school, it will make your life so much easier. The real fun begins with the Prom of that year. Get to know Aaron's brother better. There's a 99% chance you end up married to him, even though he's a bit older. He's a great guy, don't let the others shit on him for liking video games a little too much. Also, you look hot on prom.
Get a pixie cut earlier. It looks amazing. Take care of your skin. Shower more. Wash your face. Brush your teeth. Don't be gross, even though it's easy to. Get rid of your collection of tacky Hot Topic shirts, they look like shit on you. Your boobs are fine. You're not too thin, people are just jealous. Try to make friends in college, you get super lonely and depressed without that.
Your friends will change. Your best friend now is living 4 hours away and isn't as good of a friend as you once thought. Stop acting like someone else in front of them. It'll only come back to bite you in the ass when they blame your boyfriend for changing you. Your new best friend is the one you secretly knew was always your best friend, but the other one wouldn't hear of that. Don't be afraid to speak up in front of them. Losing one or two won't be the end of the world. Oh, Aaron becomes a douche. Sucks to know he's gonna be your brother in law, huh? Keep connections though, he's good for a super liberal fueled laugh, and you don't want to burn that bridge.
You don't actually want a business degree. Not even future you knows exactly what she wants, but look into Sociology. I think you'd like it. Think about being a college professor. The idea will grow on you. You don't have the balls to be a CEO, so you can kinda forget that dream. Don't take the job at the grocery store, it'll only fuel your depression. Save your money. Don't spend it all in a depression fueled rage on Steam.
You know that roleplaying you loved? Keep doing that. Even if you don't, you'll pick it up again when you're lonely enough. It will start out very slow, but hopefully it begins to pick up for you. Never go back to CS, you will only be stifled there. However, do get in touch with your old buddies. They'd love to talk.
Keep good relations with mom and dad, even though it's hard. They do love you, even if it doesn't seem like it some days. They're just afraid of becoming empty nesters. Try to suck it up and go to church, they'll let you stay home soon enough. Ignore everything the people say there, they're all hypocritical assholes. Oh, and all the cool people leave because there was a feud. So watch out for that.
Sorry it was long, but you love reading, so I don't feel too bad. Just... Pick up a book once in a while, good God. It will help, I promise. You're not hot shit, and you likely never will be. Stop pretending. Anyway, hope these things helped you in some way, shape, or form. Have a good one.
Sincerely, Future You.
PS: You want kids eventually. So ha.
You're fucking depressed, DO SOMETHING BEFORE LATE 2015. Seriously. I don't care if mom freaks out and says you're just being a lazy shit, apparently Minnesota has some thing where you can go to the doctor at age 15+ without parental consent for mental things. So do that. You will actually be able to get through high school without feeling like a total failure. Just go to the damn doctor, you'll be diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (which sounds scary, but it's not), and they'll get you on pills. Just don't go on Prozac, bad times were had with Prozac. Mom and dad will eventually come around and be supportive, but it takes a little while, so just hang in there. If you don't heed my advice, your peak will hit around November 2015, so watch out for that. It'll be hard to even function.
Don't let your friends tell you who to date. None of them will like you like that, and the ginger turns out to be an asshole anyway. Just hold out on dating until after high school. The short one stays your friend, and goes into the air force. Prom 2013 doesn't go as planned because of the little shit, but it's still fun. DO NOT GO FOR THE NECKBEARD. Your friends were right, he's now fat, stinks, and tries to woo you in front of your now boyfriend. He goes to prom with you. Yep. You'll go to prom with The Tork because he's your last chance at going with another person. Pretty sad, huh?
Things do look up, though. Senior year is pretty great. Don't bother with Yearbook, it's a waste of time. Don't even bother with Knowledge Bowl, honestly. No EC activities for you. Do your homework. Take College Algebra in high school, it will make your life so much easier. The real fun begins with the Prom of that year. Get to know Aaron's brother better. There's a 99% chance you end up married to him, even though he's a bit older. He's a great guy, don't let the others shit on him for liking video games a little too much. Also, you look hot on prom.
Get a pixie cut earlier. It looks amazing. Take care of your skin. Shower more. Wash your face. Brush your teeth. Don't be gross, even though it's easy to. Get rid of your collection of tacky Hot Topic shirts, they look like shit on you. Your boobs are fine. You're not too thin, people are just jealous. Try to make friends in college, you get super lonely and depressed without that.
Your friends will change. Your best friend now is living 4 hours away and isn't as good of a friend as you once thought. Stop acting like someone else in front of them. It'll only come back to bite you in the ass when they blame your boyfriend for changing you. Your new best friend is the one you secretly knew was always your best friend, but the other one wouldn't hear of that. Don't be afraid to speak up in front of them. Losing one or two won't be the end of the world. Oh, Aaron becomes a douche. Sucks to know he's gonna be your brother in law, huh? Keep connections though, he's good for a super liberal fueled laugh, and you don't want to burn that bridge.
You don't actually want a business degree. Not even future you knows exactly what she wants, but look into Sociology. I think you'd like it. Think about being a college professor. The idea will grow on you. You don't have the balls to be a CEO, so you can kinda forget that dream. Don't take the job at the grocery store, it'll only fuel your depression. Save your money. Don't spend it all in a depression fueled rage on Steam.
You know that roleplaying you loved? Keep doing that. Even if you don't, you'll pick it up again when you're lonely enough. It will start out very slow, but hopefully it begins to pick up for you. Never go back to CS, you will only be stifled there. However, do get in touch with your old buddies. They'd love to talk.
Keep good relations with mom and dad, even though it's hard. They do love you, even if it doesn't seem like it some days. They're just afraid of becoming empty nesters. Try to suck it up and go to church, they'll let you stay home soon enough. Ignore everything the people say there, they're all hypocritical assholes. Oh, and all the cool people leave because there was a feud. So watch out for that.
Sorry it was long, but you love reading, so I don't feel too bad. Just... Pick up a book once in a while, good God. It will help, I promise. You're not hot shit, and you likely never will be. Stop pretending. Anyway, hope these things helped you in some way, shape, or form. Have a good one.
Sincerely, Future You.
PS: You want kids eventually. So ha.
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