So I love the music by Akira Yamaoka from the Silent Hill games because it's really good and also unsettling. Silent Hill 2's OST is particularly good. The first track is the intro theme and more emotional than creepy, so skip that if you want to get to the more atmospheric shit. I especially like Null Moon, Angel's Thanatos, and Terror in the Depths of the Fog.
Ah, you beat me to it. ;-) Fun fact tho, there's an
in-game version of Black Fairy on YT, I listen to that when I'm writing a particularly grisly scene. I think that's really how the track is meant to be experienced, the soundtrack version has all those harsh, obnoxious mechanical noises, idunno why they left that shit in the soundtrack but removed it from the game itself. Anyways, can confirm Silent Hill 2's soundtrack really stands out from the rest of them, but the others have their moments, too.
Tears Of,
Not Tomorrow,
Dance With Night Wind and
Breeze In Monochrome Night to name a handful. You could also look up Silent Chill on YT and you'll find a mix of tracks from each soundtrack.
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Ahh, where to begin! I Let It In And It Took Everything is probably a good start. The title alone already conveys this sense of loss to me, either from some kind of betrayal or after succumbing to some unfortunate, detrimental thing, a terrible demise in the guise of solace. This song always reminds me of a massacre from an old roleplay of mine, when an evil witch disguised herself as a helpless beggar so as to find refuge in a prince's castle, only to reveal her true, menacing form as she and an ally started cleaning house.
TW: Depression, suicide
Giles fucking Corey! I love this man with all my heart, his music is AMAZING. I only put a trigger warning for suicide because I saw someone talking about it in the YT comments. I really don't know what to say, but I can't say anything scares me more than myself, that is to say the irrational ideas and fabrications my mind likes to come up with. Living with severe clinical depression and borderline personality disorder, I used to keep myself up at night obsessed with absurd notions of abandonment among numerous anxieties and just this overall feeling of hopelessness and self-doubt. It got to the point where I was so comfortable with my misery and loneliness that I would self-sabotage myself from any opportunities at friendship or connections with people, that whole idea that you're better off alone.
That's not something I believe or try to indulge in anymore, it's not a philosophy of love. But it's an important time of my life I'll never forget, I can't afford to, otherwise I'll end up making the same mistakes. I think that alone is a testament to how scary the threat of mental illness is, when you let the mind wander without proper guidance and a nurturing hand, it'll wander to the darkest corners of humanity. I think the song No One Is Ever Going To Want Me is superb at capturing that dark corner of humanity that anybody can find themselves lost in. It's a really magnificent piece of art that grounds you. Dumb happy people will hear it and might feel humbled by the thoughts and emotions it conveys, maybe even a bit unsettled as the music pulls their heads down from the clouds. But afflicted people who are down in the dumps usually find comfort and belonging in the music, this feeling that you're not alone and there's many others like you who feel what you feel, it sort of drags you out of the mud.
Zealots of Stockholm is a rollercoaster for a track, I listened to it in 2013 when the album came out and to this day I still don't know what the fudge Donald Glover is rappin' and singin' about, but it sounds cool as hell over the scary ass beats, it makes me feel like someone is about to read Catcher in the Rye and then shoot John Lennon. Idunno, sounds like the theme song for a psycho ass brainwashing cult leader or something, despite the rappin' and singin'.
No Exit is another song from the album that straight up sounds like a homicide scene, and
Flight of the Navigator sounds like the aftermath of said scene from the victims perspective, perhaps with a lover at their side as they pass.
Damn, I just remembered Scroobius Pip made a song literally depicting the jolly swell time a character has killin' folk. It's kind of a banger, I can't lie, and Pip portrays this sadistic character in such a colorful way, the way he relishes in talking about 'The Struggle' as he puts it reminds me of Heath Ledger as The Joker. This psychopathic, ambitious kind of guy who's so shamelessly intelligible he's almost charming in a way. "It's not murder, it's a performance, a grand show, a spectacle of the ages!" Type shit.