Someone was talking about how roleplaying is either a positive or negative influence on self-confidence, I would say both but then again I haven't been roleplaying long enough to even figure that out. Most people see me posting around the forums or god forbid changing my username and hoping to find new partners, people change their usernames all the time but for me it feels like my confidence goes up every single time I change my username. I always hated who I was and who I was going to be, I'm the oldest in my family besides my twin brother and have nothing going for my life, I don't have any classes at my community college (it's strange how I haven't been kicked out of school), can't go get a job because I'm worried that my mental disability will affect my job editic and to be honest I think I will be fired because of it. I am now hearing sucidial and or depressing voices echoing through my head on a daily basis, roleplay was a way for me to tune them out but it seems that might not be the case anymore. I am on medication and am safe, but sometimes it feels like I am loosing control. I want to be a more postive person who shines and honestly almost reached a point in my life where I have give up, negative opnions aside I am wondering if there are any options left for me?